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Saturday, February 28, 2009

..... a bLeEdiNg tHeRmOmEtEr .....

i've realised, for the past few weeks, i resemble a thermometer
not physically, but emotionally
my mood/feeling fluctuates in split moments
i can be really distraught in the day & really exhilarated at night
in the span of a few hours of joys, i am able to forget all those sorrows & sufferings

i kept telling myself not to think about it so that i will not drip those jewels of mine
but i guess, the immense pressure that builds up day after day, just made me crumble
i've tried hearing several perspectives towards those issues i am facing
however, thou being convince that i need to give myself more time
but time after time, i realised the feeling comes back again and i totally lost control of it
i trot and trot, only to know that its a circle after all
i see no end, i see no sky,i definitely see no light

i told myself umpteen times, i reminded myself umpteen times too
i must change, mentality wise
my new hope of seeing it as .....
me being impatient
me not seeing the big picture right yet
me being over confident
with these, i am able to reprimand myself for being naive and childish
by thinking so, i am able to persevere on and wish upon to see a glimpse of hope

..... i CAN .....

11:37 pm;