**a LiFe without close sOuls**CoLoUrS oF LiFe???

Saturday, February 28, 2009

..... a bLeEdiNg tHeRmOmEtEr .....

i've realised, for the past few weeks, i resemble a thermometer
not physically, but emotionally
my mood/feeling fluctuates in split moments
i can be really distraught in the day & really exhilarated at night
in the span of a few hours of joys, i am able to forget all those sorrows & sufferings

i kept telling myself not to think about it so that i will not drip those jewels of mine
but i guess, the immense pressure that builds up day after day, just made me crumble
i've tried hearing several perspectives towards those issues i am facing
however, thou being convince that i need to give myself more time
but time after time, i realised the feeling comes back again and i totally lost control of it
i trot and trot, only to know that its a circle after all
i see no end, i see no sky,i definitely see no light

i told myself umpteen times, i reminded myself umpteen times too
i must change, mentality wise
my new hope of seeing it as .....
me being impatient
me not seeing the big picture right yet
me being over confident
with these, i am able to reprimand myself for being naive and childish
by thinking so, i am able to persevere on and wish upon to see a glimpse of hope

..... i CAN .....

11:37 pm;

Monday, February 16, 2009

*** tHe gLuE iN oTHers' LiFe ***

it's really amazing
how we can not meet for ages
but the moment we see each other
we're able to blabber non-stop
on almost every topic that strikes our mind
everyone have grown in each individual ways
we have started to dabble on the sorrows of working life
the bad economic situation that boiled us down to where w r
being forced to stay put at places we never thought we might hv been
everyone's working hard towards building their own career & life
i am happy to see these little juniors of mine to have bloom from seeds to flowers
:)
suddenly i feel old...gosh
but, i realised, i am able to dabble into any topics despite the age gap
with majority at the age of 2-4yrs younger,
ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, roar!

~ the 3 gens of IG ~

TP has indeed groom us in a way we never have thought we might be
:)

11:25 pm;

Thursday, February 12, 2009

> sELf dEstRuCtiOn <

任何事情都是命中注定
属于你的，就是你的
不属于你的，无论有多拼，永远不会属于你的
没有期待，就不会有失望.....
是吗？

“Sometimes in life, you need others to give you a chance.”

- arghz -

3:10 pm;

Sunday, February 08, 2009

*** eVeR pRoUd hOsPiaNs ***

a day when recent sorrows turned bygones
it never felt wrong to be surround by them
:)

check out facebook for those nonsensical pictorials
bear with us if explicit contents were within
outsiders will never know how crazy and cosy we can get with each other
some might think we have gone abroad
but that's just solely who we are when being put together
~ hOspIanS wE 4eVer wiLL bE ~

11:42 pm;

Saturday, February 07, 2009

! nEvEr cOmpArE sUfFeRiNgs !

during times like these,
when i am at my lowest,
when i could not find any more ways to strengthen my thoughts to pick myself up again,
i contemplate to give it all up and waste my life away being "useless" in the eyes of others

however, it's always during times like these
i get to chance upon certain things that re-trigger that "thing" in me
this time round, it was a video of someone's life

thru him, i found inspirations of how to not give in to the hurdles in life
i hope to those who might be in the same shoe as i am, can as well :)

I gotta say, life isn't how i expected
but in a way, i guess that's nice
o, not really
and i cried myself to sleep
but what can i do?
what am i supposed to do with this mess called life?
people always say
"you'll figure it out along the way"
still.....

6:18 pm;