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Thursday, January 29, 2009

*** a frUitFuL sHoRt LiFe ***

it's been a while since i've known the existence of this series
i was really exhilarated to chance upon it at the famous Eslite Bookstore in Taiwan
it speaks so much of the sorrows that i encountered, just like the japanese girl featured in it
i nod my head & gave a smile at every flip of reading
it's just so true, so real, so fasinating
- hahahaha, i am never alone once again -

12:58 am;

Saturday, January 24, 2009

~ rOoTs oF LaNguAge ~

I had great laughs while trotting round various parts of Taiwan
the country amazed me

they invent nonsensical road signs/store names, etc
their direct translations from chinese to english & vice versa
they are seriously "cute"

11:50 pm;

Thursday, January 22, 2009

i know i owe u loads, ha

in your favourite colour,
with the simplest greetings
* happy birthday *

12:01 pm;

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

!!! 今年会更好 !!!

just as i type this in the office
am side-tracking from clearing up all my neccessary work load,
head home for my yummy bakuteh dinner
& off we go to Changi Airport

~yeapeedaadoo~
cant wait cant wait
it's the time of the year once again
my fam just hv this tradition whereby we'll not be in sin during cny period
i guess its what many term as 避年
haha, actually it's a crap term
coz going for a holi, u still need to 委托 ang pows as well
thus its like double expenses
~ cheyz ~
moreover, the cny "income" has been depreciating as we grow older
thus, i would rather not get it to help those pple in saving a couple bucks more
? a way of doing good deed ?
- hahahaha -

frankly speaking, heading out of sin this year is going to be the most ideal choice
especially after certain incidents, i would rather dodge than to face-it
- kekeke -

once again, we have opt to go on free & easy instead of a tour
yesterday, chef reminded me of sth ..... arghz
however, i crossed fingers that the US holi nightmare will not come to haunt us again
- @#$% @#$% -
with the dearest gps, i believe our X5 ride around the country would be fabulous
!!! 台湾我来了 !!!
~ till 31st Jan 09 ~

12:37 pm;

Monday, January 19, 2009

*** mY liGhT beArErs ***

there are just some people in life whom you felt in debt to

they aint necessarily your loved ones
but people whom have turned from acquaintances to mentor to friends and much more
in my life, i am lucky to have two very significant personnel whom have touched my heart
they not only taught me things that was within their career scope
they have given me a glimpse and taste of what life's really all about
their sacrifices made mine so much smaller
their TLC comes in ways where words don't speak for it

i am grateful to them for being part of my growing phrase
just today, their presence in tonight's dinner made my day
it's been hell long since i last had such contagious laughter
i am totally myself just in front of them, hiding nothing from even the tiniest bit

their words of wisdom made me realized that i am a weakling
thru them, i am all so motivated about my life once again
thru their analogy, i am learning to embrace what's laid in front of me
allowing me to look on the bright side and work hard towards it
i sincerely hope to see the fruit that i bear in time to come

~ i was head over heels ~
their never-ending support since that incident made me tear from within
their words of encouragement and their believes in me assures me i am never alone
~ thank you chefs ~

u both are my inspiration & gems in my life

thank you :)

11:32 am;

Sunday, January 11, 2009

-::::: a tRasHeD sOuL :::::-

被打碎的梦想
~ a penned resolution, a jaded me ~

just 2 weeks ushering into the new year
i realized the path in front of me is wavering
i see no end, i sense no strength
day by day as i hope
day by day i was trashed

since the day i made that turning point
i dare to dream no more
i dare to pursue no more
as a dream was shattered, and so was I

i lost myself in the process of imaginative healing
being in disillusion that i might just be high up there
soon, i will lose my footage
caging up and pass those days

the green-eyed monster in me starts to emerge
for under many circumstances that cant be submerged
i disagree with "competition is healthy, for it makes one better"
as in the 1st place, no chances/opportunities & trust was given
i tried many a times to motivate myself
convincing that i was "saved" for much more
but time after time, i fell deeper into the hollow well

many said "Life's a never-ending learning journey"
we must 活到老学到老
crap shitz to that
many a times, time waits for no man
how often pple are willing to wait for one to learn those ropes
when right smack in front of them comes someone whom knows it all
in this circumstance, even if one is willing to learn, it's just for enriching purpose only
it doesn't help to bring you wealth, acknowledgment and opportunities, for its long taken by others

it has come to a point of time in my life that i see no purpose anymore
i live my life day by day with no goals
just being plain happy with a shelter above my head
??? where's the ME ???
please don't ask, for neither do i know
- silence -

adding on,
watching hell's kitchen s4 brought back many fond memories
it triggers many similar happy moments i once shared
the days when i am groomed in any ways possible
the days when i was provided opportunities that i could not hv asked for more
the days when i was empowered
the days where pple sees talent in me which i never know exists
..... it made me realized .....
it's really impt to have someone our there to lookout for you
to provide all kind of opportunities
to support, trust & believe in YOU
sadly, its also something i destroyed it with my own bare hands
looking back, i reprimanded myself .....
??? Y ???
i concluded, i was young back then

~ 嘻嘻哈哈的人生背后，掩盖了很多无人知的故事～

4:53 pm;

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

(: ~ kNoWinG u R tHeRe ~ :)

Incompatible, it don't matter though,
'Cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr Loveable is already in my life?
Right infront of me,
Well maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold,
Who knows how to love you without being told?
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own,
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do i find the perfect fit?
There's enough for everyone,
But I'm still waiting in line

chanced upon the above lovely writings
thru someone's space where i find loads of motivation from
someone in my life recently mentioned about looking out for a "garang princess"
ha, i wonder how lucky he can be, for we know it might just be a long wait
despite, we know there's someone there for sure
:)

9:44 pm;

Saturday, January 03, 2009

***hOsPiaNs***

the phrase i have always believed in have been proven once again
*winks*

never taking things for granted
it takes everyone's hands to clap
with every inch of effort being put in
we REUNITE once again

11:40 pm;

Thursday, January 01, 2009

!!! 踏入人生25年的我 !!!

..... omg .....
25th year since i have come into this mixed-feeling world
- lol lol lol -
life's really a never-ending learning journey
we learn in every way we possibly can
thru people, oneself, surroundings, environment, etc
in general, about humanity, that scares me shitz

2008 was a really bad year for me
a human born in the year of the rat, hitting the year of the rat after 2 cycles
2009 MUST be good
i yearn, i desire, i hope
i wish for justice in life
i have great expectations on others & myself
those sacrifices must pay
those tears must turn jewel

i believe in resolutions, i pen it down year after year
till date, i have achieved NONE
nevertheless, i am still penning and i am still hopeful

***Happy New Year***
an enriching life begins just today
:)

11:10 pm;