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Thursday, October 30, 2008

!!! tHe.wOrKahOLiC.mE !!!

very very very busy
~ i am loving it ~
i seriously worked well under pressure
i performed best under scrutiny
i enjoyed most when my mobile rang non-stop

我常常告诉自己,我是个人才
爽到极点
哈哈

10:37 am;

Sunday, October 26, 2008

~ *** s.H.i.V.E.R.s ***~

i've given my whole life/time for someone whom i thought i'll be spending my life with
sadly,knowing he's not the one ultimately
~ abstract from kk ~

??? yyyyy ???
loving one is just not a simple i.love.you
- this sucks -

8:19 pm;

Monday, October 20, 2008

a.cHaNgEd.mE

it wasn't easy
i can wholeheartedly vouched for that
a big step in life
a changed mentality
a right mindset
no longer jaded
re-charged for a new start

thrown away were those dreams i once hold on dearly
trashed away were those accolades i've once attained
diminished were those scorching flames that burnt
despite these
there's one thing for sure that i do know
the LOVE for it will never fade or die
i sincerely hope so
the practicabilities in life just takes its tolls on humans in such easy feet

embracing what's in for me in years to come
wishing and hoping for achievements that tells a sum

*thanks you to those that stood by*
seeing those precious jewels tat dripped by

6:11 pm;

Thursday, October 16, 2008

~ 88 oNcE aGaiN ~

off i go on a jet plane
to the land of pad thai

stepping foot into a place where its alerted to be dangerous
- the current riot land -

attending a stranger's wedding sounds weird to many
but i guess,its such a norm for me
would love to see how's a thai wedding being celebrated

moi's 1st half biz-leisure trip
i hope to enjoy myself,with the companion of my parents

~ brb soon ~

12:58 am;

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

@ tHe nOn-sTudiOuS mE eVoLvEd @

many thoughts went thru my mind
whilst on my way home
i wondered now and then
did i really enjoyed the class
did i really find it interesting
or was it all just coz i've force-feed myself with the "right mentality"
anyhow,i still managed to pull thru 3hrs straight for my 1st lesson

frankly speaking
i dragged my soul to pull thru the very 1st hour
i kept taking mini glances at my watch
seeing how the minutes and seconds just tick by
knowing that i have like 120mins more to go
i was embarrassed to have yawn tons of time

1st lesson has its typical start off point
still,i was taken aback when the lecturer mentioned
"pls give a short introduction of urself"
"name & where you work"
- oh lord,i hate this -
"Hi,I'm Soo Ling and I just graduated from Uni"
right after mentioning that,everyone made a sharp head turn and looked at me
it was weird indeed,bcoz i have never expected such a reaction frm my coursemates
it seems like they have never encountered a uni student before,lol lol
the lecturer joked after releasing a awed expression
"so y r u here when u already hv a degree on hand?"
..... i am like .....
haha,erm,i studied hospitality thus i am here to gain some knowledge for a new field
thus he added on "dont worry,i will guide u step by step"
- heaving huge sigh of relief -

gosh,i wonder was it because i am stubborn or i am just being focus in the past
i realised i am so ignorant on the on-goings of any other industry except hospitality/tourism
the stories/issues/terms told and used were such a stranger to me
i flip my notes every now and then to further aid me in understanding wat the lec was talking
really,besides service service service and more service
i seriously know nuts
it's indeed a whole.new.world to me

despite all the mixed emotions
for the 1st time
i kind of enjoyed the slow drive back home
listening to the melody of jay chou's music
re-evaluating the chimalogy terms used in class
for a very short moment
i realised i am keen in having a change in career path for sure
- lol lol lol -
- tsk tsk tsk -

i am just so easily contented
i am just so easily being persuaded
i am just so easily being amused by new challenges

*??? who am i ???*
*its sth i will never know myself till then*

most importantly,at least i am looking forward to the next lesson
a great improvement as its been long since i am last proud of myself
small pat on my own shoulders
- lol lol lol -

11:12 pm;

Monday, October 13, 2008

..... tiLL dAtE,i rEaLiSeD .....

i've lost the urge to blog everyday
i've forgotten the existence of the camera in my bag
i've become lazy in colourizing my posts

i've kind of lost the zest in life which i last found 2 years back
??? where am i ???
it's something i will never know till the day i gain happiness once again
??? when will that be ???
i pondered too

..... hmz .....

冷漠,有时候并不无情
它只是一种避免被伤害的工具

10:04 pm;

Friday, October 10, 2008

@!!! sPoT oN !!!@

dirty.sexy.money
mixed feelings for a family-based show
its just so real that i hate the fact that i see a mirror image of myself
just right on the latest episode,i said a big hello once again
*@#$%*

应为你是这份工作的最佳人选
虽然你这一辈子都是这个家庭的害群之马
但是你还是乐意为他们掏心掏肺
you are the best person for the job
thou you have been the black sheep in the family for ur whole life
but u r still willing to do anything & everything for the family

i believed there aint any angel in this world
but i've found an angel within me
how ironic is that

11:28 pm;

Thursday, October 09, 2008

*** wiShiNg & hOpiNg ***

granny's hospitalised once again
she has never been in any good health for the past yrs
her bonus 4yrs were a gift frm heaven to us all

being back at the same old hospital & ward & foodcourt
nothing's changed except that we saw the non-existence of
Novena Square to its well-establishment buildings to it being called Velocity
..... reminiscing the days .....
whereby everyone got into a huge shock
the day my uncle collapse due to extreme sadness
times where we stayed overnight @ the hospi
the daily vending machine we patronize for milo/kopi

the environment's full of familiarity
i shiver as i i take every step towards the ward
hoping the same scene will not repeat itself

*ah ma,你要健康哦*

11:38 pm;

Monday, October 06, 2008

~ 人生就是这么样的不简单 ~

harsh reality sets in
i tried many a times to float inside a dreamy bubble
but the bubble has been poked and it broke

i've come to realise,i must try not to detest anything in life
heaven just loves to play a joke on me
as much as i hate being a student
as much as i hate those numerical figures
as much as i hate hving to jump into an unknown world
i am hving so much fate with the above stated scenarios
the more you detest it,the more it comes haunting on you
??? y y y y ???

..... today .....
just when i step foot into that building
just when i pen down that signature on that piece of paper
just when i settled the required payment
my fate is sealed
i blame no one for that decision made
a personal choice indeed
sth i am sure i will regret for life
but i still chose to walk on that path
army dudes loves to preach on this:
"when the going gets tough,the tough gets going"
i hope i am one of the tough ones,armoring myself for a torturous future

looking on a bright side
who knows,i might just be someone in future
prolly in my humble little own world
- hiak niak hiak -

11:59 pm;

Sunday, October 05, 2008

@~ tEaRy mOmEntS ~@

an uncontrollable emotion
an experience for the 1st time

i teared for moments like this:

http://cloudeight.wordpress.com/2008/10/05/1120/

~ money just cant buy you such love ~
xo

10:58 pm;

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

~ 戏如人生,人生如戏 ~

entering into the 5th month
i too,wonder wat's next
others questioned
many cared

all i can say
i am pretty occupied
!!! because the season for the US drama(s) is back !!!
not to haunt me bt to enlighten my life back
- hiak niak hiak -

TVB2008年重头剧
80集
珠光宝气
seriously cant wait for its premiere
whichever top notch artists
you name it,they are in it
- woot -

2:59 pm;