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Saturday, May 19, 2007

~ sOrRoWs oF dEpArTuRe ~

Time passed by within split second

It's been a whopping 9months of having my feet on the Queen's ground

I have become attached to this place which I once dread to stay put in

It never comes across my mind that I will reminisce it at all

It's always when one dont get hold of it, one starts pondering how precious it was to them

Even though I am leaving UK for only 3 mths of well-deserved & precious holiday

*winks*aint true*

It feels like years that I am going back next

I guess the feeling sets in when I realise that it's going to be a whole new experience once again

Moving into an unknown area, room, hsemates,etc

I felt insecure about returning back to school despite those misses

It's never going to be the same anymore

I have to 're-access' my new hsemates to ensure a sense of security

It's never going to be 'home' once again

It's an exhausting few days right after my exams

It seems like there aint any settling in of relaxation mood

My mates and I were stressed up with clearing up our own room

It's time to vacate the current room

The school has a stupid system that I am soooo unwilling to comprehend

We are only allowed to stay in our hostel for 1 academic year

After which u need to re-apply again and move out

Its soooooo dumb

The additional cost incurred and the hassle we need to go through

*madness*

I had a torturous 2 nites of sleep due to the vast difference in the experience

For once, I felt like an insecure child

I felt soooo poor that I struggled within my own mind

I have taken for granted every inch of luxury or minimal survival tools I was given

I convince myself that at least I am way better than many homeless kids

At least I have a roof over my head

A loo which I can access at all time

A locked room that ensures I am safe

A bunch of hsemates that I am glued to

It was a big fall from those usual comforts that I had relied on too much

I shivered to sleep for 2nites

No pillows, duvet or even clean bedsheets for me to lie on

Just an empty filthy bed

Even in camps, we have sleeping bag with a cover for us to don on

I was really in deprive of sleep for those days due to constant tossing n turning

Though it's over, I actually misses it

Afterall, I guess I was very grateful that at least I had a bed

The nites of torture that I missed

It's time to say a temporary sayonara

To my beloved Guildford town

To the constant vibrant London streets

To my ever-lovely hsemates that I am really closed to

To those beloved Unimates of mine who I stayed up late to crack my brains with

To well-located Millennium House Flat 87 Rm 2 which I called 'Home' for 9mths

Jemma, Vicky, Moi, Mario

We were really a bunch of 'rock-on' mates

*Regna was on MIA mode*lol*

Very dodgy Jon, Ever-Aunty Melliot & Moi

Super Hiao Queen Ryl, Moi & Jiaoster Jaster

The cuddling duo

3:07 pm;