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Wednesday, July 01, 2009

nEvEr LoOk bAck

*** Phnom Penh, Cambodia ***

~ 1st - 5th Jul 09 ~

... off i go ...
once again, being out-station, the feeling's GREAT!!!
thou i know there's a lot of mess to clear
but am all ready and geared!

mths back, i've left a positive impression in the minds of several key players in Brunei
coming week, am gonna do the same...
in a whole new environment, i am gonna make sure i SHINE!!!
it's really not about how reputable you are somewhere
but it's really about how others look up to you instead :)
an idol of mine telling me he is my fan
haaaaaaaaaaaa
the feeling's indescribable
!!!! rock onz TSL !!!!

12:12 AM;

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

*** jUst wHen i wAs dYinG oF huNgeR ***

i've always had this love hate relationship with month-end
to many, it's PAY-DAY time and everyone's joying over it
but to me, its a mega huge torture...
a day that i dread for it's arrival
a day whereby i know burning the midnight oil is not WOW but HOW...
it's been a good 8mths since i've started to have this phobia for month-end
- hur hur -
just when i thought my day was really stressful enough,
my bro made it even more stressful when he came by to help move tyres
1stly, he did not gave me a choice of my dinner preference,
2ndly, he just popped by with 3pkts of rice + 1/2 of a whole chicken, just for the 2 of us
- yea, tell me more abt me being not round enuff -
lol
3rdly, GREAT.....there were NO forks or spoons given

thus, i was really forced to use my hands and munch
it was really my 1st time and i really did hesitated for a long while...
trust me, i did search high and low for some spare cutleries in the ofc, but to no avail
thus, there we go, digging our hands into the rice and placing right into our mouth
my bro even looked @ me and asked, " is it too unglam for you that you took so long to decide? "
haaaaaaaaaaaaa, seriously i don't know what stopped me thou
lol
hell anw, we had great laughs over dinner and looking at how pathetic we were at that moment
i guess that moment of unexpected joy I had was gd enuff as a stress reliver
*woot*

11:48 PM;

Saturday, June 20, 2009

~ tHe LoSt mE ** iTs bEeN LonG ~

kekeke
sooooo sua ku
1st time to marina barrage
thou it's been a hype for long
but i guess the urge to go just wasn't there
lol

however, made an impromptu trip there with our finest photographer yg li
kekeke
the place was really packed with people due to a rock climbing competition
however, with jungle boy hving his ways, we managed to park @ a secret plc
ting & i were very mesmerized with the rock climbing hunks that we practically ignore yg
haaaaaaaaaaaa

the place really made me a very ambitious person
it brought me back to the taysooling that i used to be
finding back the old me,someone whom i felt familiar with
the landscape and horizons was exactly how i always picture myself to be while watching tv
from a far, i yearn to own that particular building
from a far, i shout out loud & dared to dream once more
from a far, the urge to be successful and be a prominent figure lingers
-arghz-

hell anw, it was really a good night spent
yg was totally engross with his photography while ting & i night-dreamt our way thru
:)
ting commented that i am her new dating partner, OMG
bt, indeed its so true, for we hit a record of meeting up 4times that week
hahaha

11:46 PM;

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

*** tHe FSBCGS girLs 888

it's amazing how i managed to get close with these peeps
they are pple who guided me thru my FS journey
they are pple whom drilled me from head to toe
they are pple whom are way above being bimbotic despite their posh outlooks @ work
they are the ones whom always ask me to look out for my 'flower pot'
~ assholes ~

they are just so hilarious, so pure, so straight-forward
the unmasked version of them cracks me up
i am afterall a small little girl in their eyes
:)

11:34 PM;

Thursday, June 11, 2009

*** ~ 回忆 ~ ***

回忆是越是美好的人
现实中越是容易不幸

??? 真的吗 ???

3:56 PM;

Thursday, June 04, 2009

~ tOoooo cUte 2 rEsiSt ~

i've always been a huge fan of Mr. Men & Little Miss
remembering those days i used to flip the various small little booklets
giggling at how lame their stories were but nevertheless being entertained by them too
the attraction i had for them was they were just so colourful as a bunch
there's just this thing about me and colours that i adore :)

back in the days in surrey, as and when i head dwn to london,
will for sure make a trip to covent garden and purchase their individual clay figurines bit by bit
those were the days when the x-change rate of pounds and sin were 1 is to 3
i was insane to buy them, but they were just too irresistible for me
at that point of time, it's really tough to get hold of the figurines in Singapore

as time passed, with a blink's eye, everywhere in Sin now has Mr.Men & Little Miss
i seriously dislike it when it gets too commercialize and every corner you turn,
pple are just walking advertisements of it, lol
*smack smack* i was one of those as well, lol

just when i seriously have no time recently to idolize my mountain of "toys"
i am being brought back into this little girl fantasy world of mine :)
whenever i head to 7-11 to buy magz or shell to pump the petrol,
the whole shelf besides the cashier is stack with loads of Mr.Men & Little Miss
all sorts of merchandise were available from water bottles to stickers to plush toys

ooooooooooooooooooooooooo
everytime, i was very very tempted to buy the BIG plush toys home, one by one
bt thinking and re-thinking, i was afraid of the stares pple might give me
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
a grown-up holding a BIG plush toy.....
hmz..............
but i really do adore it alot.....

my fren's have been nagging at me to stop wearing cartoony tees
my family have been telling me to stop buying "toys" all of kinds
lol lol
but thinking again, i can faster buy and faster run to my car after pumping the petrol
no one will see rite?
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

8:40 AM;

Friday, May 29, 2009

!!! tHeRe'S aLwaYs a liMit, i nOe !!!

yesterday was just a hell night being spent
went home smiling from ear to ear after a well-spent dinner & chill session with ngia & ting
but.....the horror awaits @ home
received an email in my biz inbox with the notice arrival of 12containers all @ 1 shot
*faints big time*
was uber stressed abt the logistics problem and i was liaising with my EU cust till 4am
just when i thought i am was so tired and needed a gd slp...
great....i had insomnia....
was so stressed and kept thinking about the planning, that my mind did not stop working
*arghz*
not being able to fall aslp when u need to work the next day is a huge torture
- @#$% -

just when i tell myself, its time for a break.....
i was seriously being uber entertained by the below video
*brought back memories of the Malacca trip, where yg insist we all must dance to the beat*
~ lame can ~
*he even had the song stored in his hp,omg*

9:22 PM;

Thursday, May 28, 2009

~ aM cOnVinCed ~

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold, the bird froze and fell to the ground in a large field. While it was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on it. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, it began to realize how warm it was. The dung was actually thawing him out! Soon, a farmer passed by and heard the little bird chirping. Seeing the poor creature covered with dung, he decided to help the bird get out of the mess and placed it under a shrub. By this time, the bird was feeling warm and chirpy. A cat passing by heard the sounds, saw the bird and ate it up.

Morals of the story?
1) Not everyone who drops shit on you is your enemy.
2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
3) When you’re in deep shit, it might be better just to keep your mouth shut.

chanced upon the above story and i realized, indeed, we never know who's our fren/foe

*watch out everyone*

11:41 PM;

Monday, May 25, 2009

@ hOpiNg 2 sEe tHe liGhT oF dAwN sOon @

我一直相信要趁年轻而为事业打拼
有多艰苦都无所谓
最重要是觉得现在的努力是值得的, 而且觉得对将来会是一个好帮助
最竟的我为了要赚多点钱而想疯了

with work, i have lost a big portion of the social life that i used to lead
with work, i have lost every zest in life to do things that i used to yearn for
with work, i seem to have fade quite a bit from whom i used to be
thou being jaded,
still.....i've decided not to take any step back to chill or relax
instead, i've decided to charge forward in all ways possible to earn a living
~ lol lol ~

in usual cases,
i work from Mon till Friday, from morning till night, min of 12hrs
for Saturday & Sunday, would be own time own target
as of last week, i've earn myself a new working opportunity :)
this equals to additional income and even lesser social life
but, i see the 'rolling' of money into my 'golden pot' being more impt
- hahahahaha -
every Saturday is gonna be a work-packed day
i will head to JT office @ 9am and must try to finish work @ 1pm
thereafter, will head to ET shop to start work @ 2pm and end work @ 6pm

i know its damn crazy and i know this means working @ JT on Sundays for longer hours
i hope i can handle!
~ lol lol ~

10:32 PM;

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

!!! aStoUnd !!!

seriously, i think either i must admit i have aged vocally
OR this particular lady got to learn some professionalism

@ 7.30pm, i reached Holland Village to have dinner with ting
immediately after i parked my car, i received a call from xxx company
frankly speaking, the environment was pretty noisy that i did not catch the name of the co

here the short conversation goes....
surveyor: hi, i am calling from xxx company and i would like to do a short survey with you
moi: i am outside right now, thus i think its not very convenient
surveyor: this survey is to know more abt the social habits and lifestyle of Singaporeans
surveyor: it's just a short 2mins survey
moi: alright....
surveyor: how can i address you?
(just when i was about to say my name.....)
surveyor: just your surname will do
moi: oh, my surname is Tay (i spelled out for her)
surveyor: oh, so can i address you as MADAM Tay?
(seriously, i super roll-eyes can......wtf)
moi: oh, i think Miss would be much more appropriate
surveyor: sure....
(lagi roll-eyes, wat do you mean sure? do i sound that old?)
(even if i do, i think its basic courtesy that you greet someone by Miss if you ain't sure)
(surveyor started asking several questions and as i wasn't paying attention, i answered all NO to the questions she asked)
surveyor: ok, just one last question...may i know your residential type?
surveyor: is it HDB...
(and she paused for a moment, which i thought she would say the next option being condo, etc)
(but hell NO.....)
surveyor: is it a 2, 3, 4 or 5 room flat that you are currently living in.....
(i am damn shocked coz i really do not know how to react, frankly speaking, ain't all survey questions being pretty standard with options of hdb, condo, semi-detached, bungalow, etc???????)
moi: ermz, i am staying with my parents in a bungalow right now...
(i was pretty embarressed because i do not want to make it sound like i am very proud or sth)
(but i was so shocked that she don't even give any options and assumes that i stayed in a hdb...)
(it's so weird that such survey questions do exists and it shows that they have not learnt Applied Research at all, hahahaha, all TP students will know what i am talking about)
surveyor: oh, ok, thank you for your time.....

it was sooooo HILARIOUS that when i told ting about it over dinner, we laughed hysterically
we were both amused by how can this lady just address me as MADAM Tay and asked if i am ok with it
also, how can there be no options to residentital types and she went straight into the number of rooms-type of hdb i am living in

??? seriously, how inappropriate can it be ???
benefit of the doubt, either she's nervous and new or the company have really dumb pple whom came up with such survey options
IF, the survey is for pple whom lives in HDB, i can totally understand....
but if its for the general public, i think they need to widen their survey scope

-OMG-
crapz, wasted 2mins of my time, but she's lucky as it took me abt 2mins to walk frm the carpark to the restaurant, thou being obliged, i still did her a favour and she had extra one quota for her survey
~ lol ~

11:09 PM;

Sunday, May 17, 2009

~ hello W.O.R.L.D ~

youuuuuu whoooooooo
hmz, I seem to have distant away from my virtual soul mate aka my blog
as usual, life's have been hell hectic with work and nothing else
thus, everyday i head home being mentally & physically drained
not being able to find any time for myself, let alone to communicate with this virtual mate of mine

however, today's a day i totally reserved it for me, my soul, my room, my dramas,etc
having not needed to head back to office is such a joy
yest, i silent my phone, hoping to be able to sleep till past lunch time, but to no avail...
i woke up @ 7.45am, and being all pissed about it bcoz i thought i slept pretty long already
being me, not being able to head back to slp, i started on my drama marathon @ 8am, lol
in between, took a 30mins break to eat my lunch and read the papers
thereafter, i continued watching my dramas till 4pm and started packing n tidying up my room
it was a day i enjoyed so much, doing the things i used to do prior to hving a job
*woooohooooo*

9:49 PM;

Friday, May 15, 2009

@ biTteRLy sOrRy @

today, i had the biggest work-related shock of my life
an email 'flew' into my inbox and my jaws dropped immediately.....
without even giving any 2nd thoughts,
i picked up the phone and make a call to Hong Kong to rectify the blunder i made
due to my carelessness, it cost me a USD 4-digit sum loss
a mistake i could have avoided if i had told myself to do it the very next day instead of that very night
despite the excuses i have, which was pretty valid,
still, i really wanted to stab myself

i felt even more guilty that i do not have to top up these loss with my salary,
which, by the way, will totally rip me off the month's in-take + top-ups
*arghz*

from that very minute i put down the phone,
i drilled into my brain....
i will checked all my documents at least 3times before couriering it out
i will work even longer hours to ensure that all docs are well checked and prepared

it was a hard-rock lesson learnt
something in life i will never forget and the regrets will linger for sure

*sobz*
just when i thought i was a great short distance runner,
this incident have caused me to run a marathon instead,
something which will take me awhile to get used to it.....

i was never a gem in his eyes but i tried hard to polish myself to look like a diamond,
for now, am sure, i am a mountain of dust
*f...*

11:31 PM;

Sunday, May 10, 2009

*** iT waS tHem ..... ***

~ 我终于领悟到休息是为了走更长远的路 ~

this is the kind of freedom that i have been yearning for since nov 2008

it was their perseverance and enthusiasm that helped rejuvenate my soul
it was them being slightly more free during those days that made the trip possible
it was them whom was so ONz about this mini trip that turn words into reality
thank you ah nan, chinnyman & yg
i am glad despite being so hectic @ work, i went on this trip with you guys
pardon me for always replying emails with my phone :P

it was you 3 that made me have a taste of gel-ling well :)
the trip was short, but no words can describe the joy we had
the never-ending distance of walk we took.....
the amount of 'sun-tanning' we had for days.....
the laughter we shared.....
the panic we went thru.....
the ugly pics we posed for....
nothing beats these true self of ours that's being revealed in this trip

in this trip, we had some plans in mind to execute and i hope it will be one day
having the faith and believing that we can matters most
many a times, we realized that many words were said but were never put into action
but i believed, this time round, as its the 4 of us, it will be put in place

everyone of us have our very own journey to embark on
coming together was never an easy feet but we made it happen
there's gonna be more to come!
*woot*

10:04 PM;

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

*** a zOmbiE iN mY oWn wOrLd ***

i lead a very very unhealthy lifestyle in recent weeks
not having lunch is a norm
and having really late dinner, just before supper time, is a norm

just yesterday,
my mind did not stop working,
woke up @ 6amplus for work @ ard 7amplus
as usual, lunch have to be skipped due to logistics problem @ warehouse
i ended work @ 10.15pm,
zoom off home and have my warm shower
and down i go to the kitchen, boiling my ba ku teh and steaming my rice
*yums*
while waiting for my dinner, sat in the kitchen & chatted with my beloved ah nan
worst part is, when i was done with my dinner & fruits,
i was so shagged that i went to bed immediately
this is sooooooo OMG, i am speechless that i actually did that
but hell anw, too tired to even think if its good for health anot, lol

anw, neighbour match-making have its third phase,
i can't wait to pen it down but its pretty time consuming to re-think back the story parts
it's really hilarious how the whole issue have turn out
once again, these few days, pple started asking again
- hahahaha -
i will be back to pen, wait for me!

1:25 PM;

Monday, April 27, 2009

~ i NoE i cAn ~

hmz....it's been really a long while....from my point of view
a week later,
here i am, back again, to pen some thoughts

it was a crazy & hectic week @ work since i've touched back from Brunei
i came back, shagged physically & mentally
but...i am no longer the "floating" me
right now, I have a focus direction to embark on
this trip was really enriching and i've learnt loads
am happy to have taken this first step in broadening my personal scope
thru these, i realized that coming to work is no longer a chore
everyday and every moment, i am racing against time
being overloaded is an understatement for my case
in actual fact, i am way above being overloaded
the amount of work i need to juggle and the time needed to complete it all
it's almost impossible thou i've tried to be a "superwoman", haha
but, am embracing it all

having chucked it aside for a year,
am going to revive my life's philosophy once again
with the right mindset and the right mentality
i am going to SOAR!

12:53 PM;