a LiFe without close sOulsCoLoUrS oF LiFe???

gOt bitTen bY thE aPpLe oNcE aGaiN

2010-06-08T09:42:00.002+08:00

:)

2010-05-19T20:25:00.000+08:00

感动每一刻

2010-04-23T15:08:00.003+08:00

天亮了拥挤的匆忙
没太多的时间狂想
忙碌追逐遗忘过往

要用多少未来的梦换一丝温柔
没有你我不懂生命算不算拥有过

别让爱像冰山融化
来不及回头
有你有我的执着
拥抱心中每一刻感动

未来或许有点迷茫
心靠近就不必惊慌
用爱让城市更美好

有你有我直到永久
拥抱你我每一刻感动

yOshi :)

就当是生命中的奇迹改变了天涯海角的距离

2010-04-02T23:42:00.003+08:00

当我以为再等不到, 你却突然停靠在我怀抱
:)

~ 绝望中给与希望 ~

2009-11-08T15:41:00.003+08:00

我們擁有同樣的陽光
:)

全世界都舉起了希望
人間一樣的忙碌擾嚷
沒有人應該永遠沮喪
有哭有笑,當然也會有悲傷
但如果要飞的更高更遠,更需要夢想

nothing beats mingling around a group of service enthusiasts
everyone's en-route to carving their own legacy in where we are being placed
a day being a hospian, forever in life we'll be a hospian :)
we are definitely a cut above the rest :)

@ rOnALd & gAnG aS kNoWn iN e pAst @

2009-11-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

~ it's always known that we are never too old for anything ~
revisiting K.A.P, a place where memories will never fade
the days we dropped our bags and risk them being stolen
walked our way to bukit timah hawker for lunch
flipping those textbks and scribbling those formulas
- my oh my -

tHe love-hate rELatiOnsHip

2009-09-17T00:20:00.003+08:00

this is quite GROSS
- 100 emails -
in a span of 3hrs while i was held-up in a meeting with my freight forwarders
thereafter, i took a look at my phone and my jaw dropped
good job people.....from wherever in the world you all are

my poor rottenberry that vibrated and blink signals like nobody's business
luckily i always hv the gorgeous Four Seasons Beverly Hills to bring me to dreamy land
- snore -

人生的起落

2009-09-13T23:55:00.003+08:00

my out-station trip to Shanghai have enlightened me tremendously
it was definitely a very humbling learning journey for the past 6days
every step i took within the expo hall, my knowledge widens
i came back from this trip with many thoughts in mind
most importantly, we must never forget our roots...
"everything we know, we learned from someone else"
:)
大海航行，靠舵手
if given a chance, i would love to hunt down the below and place it in my office!
Haaaaaa

hell anw, despite having only a day of R&R, i went on board the coolest mrt-alike-train ride
the whole tunnel was approx 10mins and the lightnings were amazing!

the short journey ride have made me realized something important:
态度决定一切
细节决定成败
from today onwards, i must make sure i work in detail, leading to near-perfection
:)
yeaaaaaahooooooooooooo

夜上海，我是一个不夜城

2009-09-08T00:33:00.002+08:00

- SHANGHAI -

it's been a good 13years since i last visited during my uncle's wedding
in a few hours time, i will be boarding the flight on a 5hrs+ journey enroute to a city i yearn to re-visit
this time round, the 'dream' comes true with a responsibility on hand
it's really amazing how business trips allows me to visit places where :
1) i've never thot of visiting (brunei & cambodia)
2) places where i used to enjoy so much but just cant seem to find the time to head there again (sha)

will be traveling with several family friends whom are all working in the automotive industry,
tyres in specific :)
will be meeting up with many familiar clients whom i've only gotten the chance to hear their voice,
and now will get to meet them in person :)
will be seeing my 7th uncle & family and esp my dearest 2 little i-wan-to-box them cousins
- hahaha -

as much as i am overly-stressed of being out-station and having to take control of my local operations
i believed these challenges in life doesn't comes by easily for anyone
and i am just glad that i hv done my very best to live by each day hoping for the best in all
- it's definitely ALL IN THE MIND -

i will be BACK :)
exceeding my personal expectations
molding a different ME
creating the best impression of my own self in others eyes

never look back on the chosen path for no one takes pity on YOU

ccccccccccccccccccccccccccCHARGEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

hEavEnLy

2009-09-01T10:56:00.003+08:00

-omfg-

NONSENSE over a MEAL

2009-08-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

2 beloved ting
cc ngia:

??? will your 孤婆屋 look like this ???
i know the 'door' will always b opened for me,
but NO THANKS

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
xoxoxoxoxo

aNothEr 25

2009-08-22T23:37:00.001+08:00

as we aged, it's never the actual birth-day that matters
it was the process of sourcing for the most practical gift to chilling out @ a unique place
as we grow out of our youth shell, we re-visit what we used to share as young peeps
:)

my birthday, the absolute picnic, the blue sky, white white cotton clouds, enormous poodle, stranded balloons, diaper cutie boy, weird couple, music, bird feathers and shits.

all the wonderful wonderful happenings, thank you my closest sweetest pals for making this day an absolute heartfelt day for me!

fleeting moments i'm not going to to be edible. thank you once again for putting in so much effort!

Love,
Jas

a hOpe tAt wEnt dWn sLopE

2009-08-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

a treat which we have all been waiting for
booked ourselves with the restaurant one week in advance
but, it turn out to be a torturous nightmare ahead
- lol -

the initially happy us
:)

shocked in awe when the whole LUMP of food arrived
:(

despite it all, nothing beats the companionship that allowed us to survive the night thru

Reaching OUT. Reaching UP

2009-08-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

i celeb the nation's birthday on a different forefront
i paid a price to scare my wits away in a cinema
but it came along with contagious laughter shared with many other Singaporeans
:)

ting & i gave yg a shock-of-his-life,
right after he ends his soccer game, he received an sms from me...
without his consent or acknowledgment,
we went ahead to book him a tix for the movie
he ain't aware of what's the show about nor did he show any prior interest
still, we dragged him along
- niak hiak niak -
i've always been a fan of jack neo's productions,
as every movie of his speaks of the real-on-goings of the environment i grew up in
i really teared for this show, but they were all tears of laughter

in support of my dearest cousin's event,
right after the movie, i dragged them both to OC to view NDP Live
i was really keen to head to marina for the fireworks display, but reckon we might not be in time
with that aside, it was a MUST for me to participate in the Nation's Pledge Moment
and WE DID IT together @ OC!
initially it was an embarrassing moment but thereafter we really embrace the experience
it was really fun singing out loud, waving and clapping our hands together with the melodies
nothing beats this unique way of celebrating National Day!

all thanks to yg's laziest of not bringing his dslr,
i do not hv any ndp 09 memories to keep digitally...
nonetheless, it was a great night well-spent!

Happy 44th Birthday Singapore!
!!! ever-proud of how a small island have developed into what it is today !!!

!!! sErviCe VS pRofiTs !!!

2009-08-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

i re-watched one of the many dramas that's close to my heart
- HOTEL BABYLON -
i've always been a firm believer of:
戏如人生，人生如戏
thus, many of my service preachings comes from the scenarios within
this show was a live-walking-textbook to me

after leaving the hospitality industry and zooming into the corporate world, i've taken a new perspective towards the below scene:

GM: General Mgr
PHM: Potential candidate for Hotel Mgr

GM: the role of a mgr is to look after the guests?
PHM: tat's right...
GM: no tat's wrong...
GM: i've already employed hundreds of people to look after that: waiters porters receptionists...
GM: in mgt, ur no.1 responsibility is to maximise profits and protect the interest of the hotel
GM: this is a business...
GM: if u don't understand that, maybe u r not the right person for the job!

SPOT ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to my surprise, an idol's biography have also revealed something:

"I never made a mistake of putting profits ahead of people, and I believe part of Four Seasons' worldwide acclaim is built primarily on the strong relationships i've built over the years with owners, partners and board members who shared my standards, and with the thousand of employees, managers, and executives who helped make the company such a success." ~ Isadore Sharp

I still strongly believed that Service is in priority when I encounter any business dealings with my suppliers or clients. However, no matter how great one's service can be, if the profit margin is being compromised, it just doesn't make any business sense. On the other hand, the service-passionate me alway thinks that an excellent service provider is worth the investments for smoother operations :)

arghz............................torn in between.
this is TOTALLY past-职业病!!!!

~ tHe pAst wE juSt aDorE ~

2009-08-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

the time you enjoy wasting, is not a wasted time :)

it was ngia's last day stint @ her intern co
thus, we decided to let loose and pre-booked ourselves with Timbre a week in advance
here's a really FUGLY expression of them both
they unintentionally emit the same kind of facial movements while brain-storming dinner plans
~ haaaaaaaaa ~

a toast to F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P
something just as simple as it can be
we swear @ at each other @ anytime
we shoot directly on comments without beating ard the bush
we poured those sorrows knowing we have each others' support
:)

the genuine smiles speaks volumes
:)

..... rEmeMbeRinG oUr ROOTS .....

2009-07-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

a spot-on quote from a buddy:
"we made an effort to revisit what we shared as good friends,
our memories for the school n the ppl who taught us gd"

thinking back on those days...
where endless offerings of bread rolls turned limited
all bcoz of cheapo-students like us...
~ hahaha ~

fine food by professional-chefs-to-be

~ mr.neo ~
the man whom groom us into excellent f&b service personnel

~ ms choi & ms quah ~
we spent a good 3.5rs in the ofc
chtting from new updates to gossips to everything under the sun

never forgetting those whom mold us to whom we are today
:)

!!! tHe POTTER bLuNdeR !!!

2009-07-26T22:37:00.003+08:00

just when i was seriously craving for a movie night out, everything went WRONG
a big bow-head to ting & chinnyman
~ kekekeke ~

on friday night, after meeting ah chek douglas n being over-dosed with Macs, i went home @ 2am
being all wide awake still, i went online to book the movie tix
seriously, its been long since i last had my wkends off, thus i happen to lost track of time
i kept thinking that the very next day is SUNDAY and we are watching the movie on Sun
not realizing anything was wrong, after making the booking, off i went to bed

here it goes:
on SATURDAY evening time, i went to collect the tix while waiting for ting & chin's arrival
ting came by and i bought popcorn and headed to the theater entrance to wait for chin
movie was @ 6.40pm,
however @ 6.50pm, i was wondering why the 'light' for cinema hall 3 ain't blinking....
thus, i asked ting to approach the 'tear tix lady' to ask abt it....
when ting turned around with a forced smiled on her face, i was thinking:
either we are on the wrong level of the theater entrance, coz there are several
or the previous movie in hall 3 was delayed thus cinema not ready for next movie yet
BUT, to my horror, in actual fact, i've booked the tix for Sunday 6.40pm show instead!!!!!!

- omfg omfg -
i really do not know if i should laugh or should i frown
just when the 3 of us were soooo looking forward for the movie, this has to happen!
thx goodness while on our way dwn the escalator, we met chin...
i told him abt the blunder i made and he gave the 'wth-kind-of-face'
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

both of them were disappointed and so am i
they commented:
i think u r too-obsessed with rolling your tyres
me:
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

this incident is REALLY so UNLIKE me and they also know it as well
haiz.........................
i really did check the date, day and timing of the tix prior to clicking confirmed...
i think i was bonkas that night.....lol

>>> MY rotten.berry <<<

2009-07-24T17:32:00.004+08:00

i've come to know abt BB all bcoz of its notorious reputation of ruining one's life
whenever someone holds a PDA-like phone, i would questioned:
"why this phone and not a BB?"
the norm responses i would get was:
"i need/have a L.I.F.E"

thus, i've always think this phone is sth that i shld stray away from
all bcoz i think i am also in desperate need of a L.I.F.E too :)
it's been 9mths into my new environment and working 13hrs a day was a norm
thus, i told myself that after work, there should be no-strings-attached with it

however, every moment after i step-foot out of the office,
physically i am somewhere but mentally i am glued to work

despite its notorious reputation, i've decided to invest in this technology
i was forced to invest in it when my HP bill came up close to sgd1000/mth for 3 mths
thx to the roaming of the mails while i was out-station
thx to the constant retrieving/sending of emails using gps
thx to the lack of proper emailing system in a phone, i had to contact my overseas client via calls

however, its been 2mths into the life with a BB
i am oh-so-thankful to it.....
bcoz of BB, ironically, i have/lead a L.I.F.E
1) i am able to leave ofc early
2) my social life resumes
3) i am still efficient esp when dealing with overseas clients
without a BB, i am always oblidged to be stuck in the ofc till 11pm
in the day, i run the local aspect of the company
and in the night, i run the overseas aspect of the company
thus due to time difference between Sin, US & Europe, i used to have to stay late in the ofc
now there's just no more worries :)
in the trading aspect of the business, every min equates to money earn
thus in order to 'catch-hold' of my clients, night time in sin was my best opportunity
and in order nt to let loose this chance, many sacrifices were made
now with a BB, i managed to juggle a balance between work and social
thus, i am really grateful to my beloved BB

however, the bb have turned into a rotten berry in my palm
hehehe
i haven been treating it right:
1) dropped onto rough concrete ground twice, ouch!
2) keypad abit gorky as i type tooooo much emails with it, super abuse it!
3) never explore any functions as i solely use it for business only, opz!
with that said, i am still very in love with my rottenberry :)

i just cant imagine my life without my RB
kudos to the man behind this invention of push mail
~i love you~
haaaaaaaaa

a wELL deSerVe bReaK :)

2009-07-16T18:17:00.000+08:00

every effort equates an ever-lasting bond being shared
right at the bottom of our hearts, we all knows that :)
the 44 girlies re-unite!

yumz yumz thai express
the appetizers were great, but my main was extremely horrible
i felt like a sick patient dining hospital food

~ the 1st talk of the night ~
they insist i look like am posing like a Fan of a Korean Superstar
*cheyz*

~ the 2nd talk of the night ~
rach being ever-proud of her Betty Boop bag
i seriously detest it, so did the rest
*arghz*

1st 50% of the gang

2nd 50% of the gang

we just love MacD, don't we ???

applaud to janeL aka my slut, 2nd in place for solid skills in self-shots
1st in place is definitely my 4ever-ngia

laughter from within can never be contained
we are just who we are,
ignoring all stares of our loudness

this night brought light back into the gloomy week i had
:)
!!! life's been great !!!

cHeeRs

2009-07-07T18:09:00.000+08:00

toasts to the success of J&T Global Cambodia & Stamford Tyres
JTG aims to be everyone's preferred business partner
:)

just a short 5D4N,
i've taken a love for Phnom Penh

despite the hectic work schedule and zero sight-seeing opportunities
the little city have emitted some vibes which gave me a different perspective of life :)
!!! i will be back there for more !!!

nEvEr LoOk bAck

2009-07-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

*** Phnom Penh, Cambodia ***

~ 1st - 5th Jul 09 ~

... off i go ...
once again, being out-station, the feeling's GREAT!!!
thou i know there's a lot of mess to clear
but am all ready and geared!

mths back, i've left a positive impression in the minds of several key players in Brunei
coming week, am gonna do the same...
in a whole new environment, i am gonna make sure i SHINE!!!
it's really not about how reputable you are somewhere
but it's really about how others look up to you instead :)
an idol of mine telling me he is my fan
haaaaaaaaaaaa
the feeling's indescribable
!!!! rock onz TSL !!!!

* jUst wHen i wAs dYinG oF huNgeR *

2009-06-30T23:48:00.004+08:00

i've always had this love hate relationship with month-end
to many, it's PAY-DAY time and everyone's joying over it
but to me, its a mega huge torture...
a day that i dread for it's arrival
a day whereby i know burning the midnight oil is not WOW but HOW...
it's been a good 8mths since i've started to have this phobia for month-end
- hur hur -
just when i thought my day was really stressful enough,
my bro made it even more stressful when he came by to help move tyres
1stly, he did not gave me a choice of my dinner preference,
2ndly, he just popped by with 3pkts of rice + 1/2 of a whole chicken, just for the 2 of us
- yea, tell me more abt me being not round enuff -
lol
3rdly, GREAT.....there were NO forks or spoons given

thus, i was really forced to use my hands and munch
it was really my 1st time and i really did hesitated for a long while...
trust me, i did search high and low for some spare cutleries in the ofc, but to no avail
thus, there we go, digging our hands into the rice and placing right into our mouth
my bro even looked @ me and asked, " is it too unglam for you that you took so long to decide? "
haaaaaaaaaaaaa, seriously i don't know what stopped me thou
lol
hell anw, we had great laughs over dinner and looking at how pathetic we were at that moment
i guess that moment of unexpected joy I had was gd enuff as a stress reliver
*woot*

~ tHe LoSt mE ** iTs bEeN LonG ~

2009-06-20T23:46:00.003+08:00

kekeke
sooooo sua ku
1st time to marina barrage
thou it's been a hype for long
but i guess the urge to go just wasn't there
lol

however, made an impromptu trip there with our finest photographer yg li
kekeke
the place was really packed with people due to a rock climbing competition
however, with jungle boy hving his ways, we managed to park @ a secret plc
ting & i were very mesmerized with the rock climbing hunks that we practically ignore yg
haaaaaaaaaaaa

the place really made me a very ambitious person
it brought me back to the taysooling that i used to be
finding back the old me,someone whom i felt familiar with
the landscape and horizons was exactly how i always picture myself to be while watching tv
from a far, i yearn to own that particular building
from a far, i shout out loud & dared to dream once more
from a far, the urge to be successful and be a prominent figure lingers
-arghz-

hell anw, it was really a good night spent
yg was totally engross with his photography while ting & i night-dreamt our way thru
:)
ting commented that i am her new dating partner, OMG
bt, indeed its so true, for we hit a record of meeting up 4times that week
hahaha

*** tHe FSBCGS girLs 888

2009-06-17T23:34:00.001+08:00

it's amazing how i managed to get close with these peeps
they are pple who guided me thru my FS journey
they are pple whom drilled me from head to toe
they are pple whom are way above being bimbotic despite their posh outlooks @ work
they are the ones whom always ask me to look out for my 'flower pot'
~ assholes ~

they are just so hilarious, so pure, so straight-forward
the unmasked version of them cracks me up
i am afterall a small little girl in their eyes
:)

* ~ 回忆 ~ *

2009-06-11T15:56:00.003+08:00

回忆是越是美好的人
现实中越是容易不幸

??? 真的吗 ???

~ tOoooo cUte 2 rEsiSt ~

2009-06-04T08:40:00.003+08:00

i've always been a huge fan of Mr. Men & Little Miss
remembering those days i used to flip the various small little booklets
giggling at how lame their stories were but nevertheless being entertained by them too
the attraction i had for them was they were just so colourful as a bunch
there's just this thing about me and colours that i adore :)

back in the days in surrey, as and when i head dwn to london,
will for sure make a trip to covent garden and purchase their individual clay figurines bit by bit
those were the days when the x-change rate of pounds and sin were 1 is to 3
i was insane to buy them, but they were just too irresistible for me
at that point of time, it's really tough to get hold of the figurines in Singapore

as time passed, with a blink's eye, everywhere in Sin now has Mr.Men & Little Miss
i seriously dislike it when it gets too commercialize and every corner you turn,
pple are just walking advertisements of it, lol
*smack smack* i was one of those as well, lol

just when i seriously have no time recently to idolize my mountain of "toys"
i am being brought back into this little girl fantasy world of mine :)
whenever i head to 7-11 to buy magz or shell to pump the petrol,
the whole shelf besides the cashier is stack with loads of Mr.Men & Little Miss
all sorts of merchandise were available from water bottles to stickers to plush toys

ooooooooooooooooooooooooo
everytime, i was very very tempted to buy the BIG plush toys home, one by one
bt thinking and re-thinking, i was afraid of the stares pple might give me
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
a grown-up holding a BIG plush toy.....
hmz..............
but i really do adore it alot.....

my fren's have been nagging at me to stop wearing cartoony tees
my family have been telling me to stop buying "toys" all of kinds
lol lol
but thinking again, i can faster buy and faster run to my car after pumping the petrol
no one will see rite?
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

!!! tHeRe'S aLwaYs a liMit, i nOe !!!

2009-05-29T21:22:00.003+08:00

yesterday was just a hell night being spent
went home smiling from ear to ear after a well-spent dinner & chill session with ngia & ting
but.....the horror awaits @ home
received an email in my biz inbox with the notice arrival of 12containers all @ 1 shot
*faints big time*
was uber stressed abt the logistics problem and i was liaising with my EU cust till 4am
just when i thought i am was so tired and needed a gd slp...
great....i had insomnia....
was so stressed and kept thinking about the planning, that my mind did not stop working
*arghz*
not being able to fall aslp when u need to work the next day is a huge torture
- @#$% -

just when i tell myself, its time for a break.....
i was seriously being uber entertained by the below video
*brought back memories of the Malacca trip, where yg insist we all must dance to the beat*
~ lame can ~
*he even had the song stored in his hp,omg*

~ aM cOnVinCed ~

2009-05-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold, the bird froze and fell to the ground in a large field. While it was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on it. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, it began to realize how warm it was. The dung was actually thawing him out! Soon, a farmer passed by and heard the little bird chirping. Seeing the poor creature covered with dung, he decided to help the bird get out of the mess and placed it under a shrub. By this time, the bird was feeling warm and chirpy. A cat passing by heard the sounds, saw the bird and ate it up.

Morals of the story?
1) Not everyone who drops shit on you is your enemy.
2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
3) When you’re in deep shit, it might be better just to keep your mouth shut.

chanced upon the above story and i realized, indeed, we never know who's our fren/foe

*watch out everyone*

@ hOpiNg 2 sEe tHe liGhT oF dAwN sOon @

2009-05-25T22:32:00.003+08:00

我一直相信要趁年轻而为事业打拼
有多艰苦都无所谓
最重要是觉得现在的努力是值得的, 而且觉得对将来会是一个好帮助
最竟的我为了要赚多点钱而想疯了

with work, i have lost a big portion of the social life that i used to lead
with work, i have lost every zest in life to do things that i used to yearn for
with work, i seem to have fade quite a bit from whom i used to be
thou being jaded,
still.....i've decided not to take any step back to chill or relax
instead, i've decided to charge forward in all ways possible to earn a living
~ lol lol ~

in usual cases,
i work from Mon till Friday, from morning till night, min of 12hrs
for Saturday & Sunday, would be own time own target
as of last week, i've earn myself a new working opportunity :)
this equals to additional income and even lesser social life
but, i see the 'rolling' of money into my 'golden pot' being more impt
- hahahahaha -
every Saturday is gonna be a work-packed day
i will head to JT office @ 9am and must try to finish work @ 1pm
thereafter, will head to ET shop to start work @ 2pm and end work @ 6pm

i know its damn crazy and i know this means working @ JT on Sundays for longer hours
i hope i can handle!
~ lol lol ~

!!! aStoUnd !!!

2009-05-20T23:09:00.004+08:00

seriously, i think either i must admit i have aged vocally
OR this particular lady got to learn some professionalism

@ 7.30pm, i reached Holland Village to have dinner with ting
immediately after i parked my car, i received a call from xxx company
frankly speaking, the environment was pretty noisy that i did not catch the name of the co

here the short conversation goes....
surveyor: hi, i am calling from xxx company and i would like to do a short survey with you
moi: i am outside right now, thus i think its not very convenient
surveyor: this survey is to know more abt the social habits and lifestyle of Singaporeans
surveyor: it's just a short 2mins survey
moi: alright....
surveyor: how can i address you?
(just when i was about to say my name.....)
surveyor: just your surname will do
moi: oh, my surname is Tay (i spelled out for her)
surveyor: oh, so can i address you as MADAM Tay?
(seriously, i super roll-eyes can......wtf)
moi: oh, i think Miss would be much more appropriate
surveyor: sure....
(lagi roll-eyes, wat do you mean sure? do i sound that old?)
(even if i do, i think its basic courtesy that you greet someone by Miss if you ain't sure)
(surveyor started asking several questions and as i wasn't paying attention, i answered all NO to the questions she asked)
surveyor: ok, just one last question...may i know your residential type?
surveyor: is it HDB...
(and she paused for a moment, which i thought she would say the next option being condo, etc)
(but hell NO.....)
surveyor: is it a 2, 3, 4 or 5 room flat that you are currently living in.....
(i am damn shocked coz i really do not know how to react, frankly speaking, ain't all survey questions being pretty standard with options of hdb, condo, semi-detached, bungalow, etc???????)
moi: ermz, i am staying with my parents in a bungalow right now...
(i was pretty embarressed because i do not want to make it sound like i am very proud or sth)
(but i was so shocked that she don't even give any options and assumes that i stayed in a hdb...)
(it's so weird that such survey questions do exists and it shows that they have not learnt Applied Research at all, hahahaha, all TP students will know what i am talking about)
surveyor: oh, ok, thank you for your time.....

it was sooooo HILARIOUS that when i told ting about it over dinner, we laughed hysterically
we were both amused by how can this lady just address me as MADAM Tay and asked if i am ok with it
also, how can there be no options to residentital types and she went straight into the number of rooms-type of hdb i am living in

??? seriously, how inappropriate can it be ???
benefit of the doubt, either she's nervous and new or the company have really dumb pple whom came up with such survey options
IF, the survey is for pple whom lives in HDB, i can totally understand....
but if its for the general public, i think they need to widen their survey scope

-OMG-
crapz, wasted 2mins of my time, but she's lucky as it took me abt 2mins to walk frm the carpark to the restaurant, thou being obliged, i still did her a favour and she had extra one quota for her survey
~ lol ~

~ hello W.O.R.L.D ~

2009-05-17T21:49:00.002+08:00

youuuuuu whoooooooo
hmz, I seem to have distant away from my virtual soul mate aka my blog
as usual, life's have been hell hectic with work and nothing else
thus, everyday i head home being mentally & physically drained
not being able to find any time for myself, let alone to communicate with this virtual mate of mine

however, today's a day i totally reserved it for me, my soul, my room, my dramas,etc
having not needed to head back to office is such a joy
yest, i silent my phone, hoping to be able to sleep till past lunch time, but to no avail...
i woke up @ 7.45am, and being all pissed about it bcoz i thought i slept pretty long already
being me, not being able to head back to slp, i started on my drama marathon @ 8am, lol
in between, took a 30mins break to eat my lunch and read the papers
thereafter, i continued watching my dramas till 4pm and started packing n tidying up my room
it was a day i enjoyed so much, doing the things i used to do prior to hving a job
*woooohooooo*

@ biTteRLy sOrRy @

2009-05-15T23:31:00.002+08:00

today, i had the biggest work-related shock of my life
an email 'flew' into my inbox and my jaws dropped immediately.....
without even giving any 2nd thoughts,
i picked up the phone and make a call to Hong Kong to rectify the blunder i made
due to my carelessness, it cost me a USD 4-digit sum loss
a mistake i could have avoided if i had told myself to do it the very next day instead of that very night
despite the excuses i have, which was pretty valid,
still, i really wanted to stab myself

i felt even more guilty that i do not have to top up these loss with my salary,
which, by the way, will totally rip me off the month's in-take + top-ups
*arghz*

from that very minute i put down the phone,
i drilled into my brain....
i will checked all my documents at least 3times before couriering it out
i will work even longer hours to ensure that all docs are well checked and prepared

it was a hard-rock lesson learnt
something in life i will never forget and the regrets will linger for sure

*sobz*
just when i thought i was a great short distance runner,
this incident have caused me to run a marathon instead,
something which will take me awhile to get used to it.....

i was never a gem in his eyes but i tried hard to polish myself to look like a diamond,
for now, am sure, i am a mountain of dust
*f...*

* iT waS tHem ..... *

2009-05-10T22:04:00.000+08:00

~ 我终于领悟到休息是为了走更长远的路 ~

this is the kind of freedom that i have been yearning for since nov 2008

it was their perseverance and enthusiasm that helped rejuvenate my soul
it was them being slightly more free during those days that made the trip possible
it was them whom was so ONz about this mini trip that turn words into reality
thank you ah nan, chinnyman & yg
i am glad despite being so hectic @ work, i went on this trip with you guys
pardon me for always replying emails with my phone :P

it was you 3 that made me have a taste of gel-ling well :)
the trip was short, but no words can describe the joy we had
the never-ending distance of walk we took.....
the amount of 'sun-tanning' we had for days.....
the laughter we shared.....
the panic we went thru.....
the ugly pics we posed for....
nothing beats these true self of ours that's being revealed in this trip

in this trip, we had some plans in mind to execute and i hope it will be one day
having the faith and believing that we can matters most
many a times, we realized that many words were said but were never put into action
but i believed, this time round, as its the 4 of us, it will be put in place

everyone of us have our very own journey to embark on
coming together was never an easy feet but we made it happen
there's gonna be more to come!
*woot*

* a zOmbiE iN mY oWn wOrLd *

2009-04-28T13:25:00.006+08:00

i lead a very very unhealthy lifestyle in recent weeks
not having lunch is a norm
and having really late dinner, just before supper time, is a norm

just yesterday,
my mind did not stop working,
woke up @ 6amplus for work @ ard 7amplus
as usual, lunch have to be skipped due to logistics problem @ warehouse
i ended work @ 10.15pm,
zoom off home and have my warm shower
and down i go to the kitchen, boiling my ba ku teh and steaming my rice
*yums*
while waiting for my dinner, sat in the kitchen & chatted with my beloved ah nan
worst part is, when i was done with my dinner & fruits,
i was so shagged that i went to bed immediately
this is sooooooo OMG, i am speechless that i actually did that
but hell anw, too tired to even think if its good for health anot, lol

anw, neighbour match-making have its third phase,
i can't wait to pen it down but its pretty time consuming to re-think back the story parts
it's really hilarious how the whole issue have turn out
once again, these few days, pple started asking again
- hahahaha -
i will be back to pen, wait for me!

~ i NoE i cAn ~

2009-04-27T12:53:00.000+08:00

hmz....it's been really a long while....from my point of view
a week later,
here i am, back again, to pen some thoughts

it was a crazy & hectic week @ work since i've touched back from Brunei
i came back, shagged physically & mentally
but...i am no longer the "floating" me
right now, I have a focus direction to embark on
this trip was really enriching and i've learnt loads
am happy to have taken this first step in broadening my personal scope
thru these, i realized that coming to work is no longer a chore
everyday and every moment, i am racing against time
being overloaded is an understatement for my case
in actual fact, i am way above being overloaded
the amount of work i need to juggle and the time needed to complete it all
it's almost impossible thou i've tried to be a "superwoman", haha
but, am embracing it all

having chucked it aside for a year,
am going to revive my life's philosophy once again
with the right mindset and the right mentality
i am going to SOAR!

@ tHe kEy 2 mY nEw fOuNd LiFe @

2009-04-19T23:15:00.001+08:00

tomorrow,
off i go to Brunei Darussalem
i've been warn that it's not really the place to be in,
but i am happy :)
when opportunities doesn't come by your way,
it's very important you seek for the key to open the door where the opportunities lies
i hope to be back with a new goal in life
or should i say, a new direction towards the path i've set my mind in embarking
*everyone's seeking their own destiny, i am too as well*

~ sUpeR exHuasTed ~

2009-04-18T21:39:00.002+08:00

i've come to a time in my life
where i fear to take any trips out of Singapore, be it a short or long break
it's the fear of facing your work desk
it's the late nights that needs to be burnt
it's the weekends being minimized due to work overload
but i do know one thing for sure
the workload will not kill me, but it does drains me physically & mentally

life's been a helluva hectic for this whole bloody week since i'm back from Perth
due to lack of rest, or i should say, no rest, the illness lingers on and on and on

i barely could find time to meet my frens,
but i did still try my best to squeeze some time for some
and i'm glad coz they really made me understand the importance of social life
the level of energy i get from meeting them is indescribable

everyone's curious about my maid-match-making issue
hahahahahahahaha
frankly speaking, i am not able to pen down the sequel to the story right yet
give me some time folks.....
i'll do it soon enough when time permits :)

~ ooooh laaaaa laaaaa ~

2009-04-14T21:59:00.003+08:00

??? have anyone mentioned before ???
..... joys comes in all shapes and sizes .....

i am so overjoyed and no words can express those feelings
it's a really tiny puny issue, bt i was so excited, i encounter insomnia yesterday
bcoz of tat, i actually went to work @ 7am
~ lol ~

!!! yeapeedoo !!!

* a cLoSeT wOrkAhoLiC *

2009-04-11T23:38:00.004+08:00

being over relaxed results in me being sick

this goes to show.....

i think i am too used to the hectic work lifestyle back in sin

- damnz -

right here,right now

i want to head back home

1st thing 1st,to see a doctor

2nd thing next,head back to work coz shipment arriving

3rd thing last,go home and sleep

how i wish i can just get an MC and stay home

~ lol lol ~

but i know thou physically i might be elsewhere,but my heart's @ work

~ tHe aH cHeK & aH sOh wOrLd ~

2009-04-09T23:30:00.002+08:00

i've got a fren whom i constantly calls him ah chek, despite his real name being douglas tay

he's an aspiring chef and someone in the limelight in recent months

it's funny how our friendship started off.....

we know each other in this small little auditorium inside the STB building

it was during the augural WGS Masterclasses,approx 4yrs ago

i was then a "young" wash-pot girl while he was the assistant to a hosted michelin chef

we just started teasing and chatting during "resting" times,which kick spark on this friendship

it's amazing how several tiny details brings fate to us

he's also by the surname of TAY

the mrx which he chauffered me around is by the carplat number of 84, the yr i was born

he wears specs which i totally do go weak on the knees

he dresses in the most sloppy-stylish wardrobe of collar-up polo tee,berms and snickers

but.....i hated his habit of constant smoking,which makes him look like a drug addict

and he has an ego as big as the universe,lol

there and then,he's one nice guy who's a total gentleman and i give plus point to that

many a times,i used my guy-buddies as a very high benchmark of how a man shld behave

anw,received a call from him just before i board the plane

ah chek: "ah soh,when you leaving for perth?"

ah soh: right now leh,liew eh,cant chat,the security ask me to put dwn the phone,88

thereafter,i called him back shortly while walking to the plane's gate

ah soh: eh,paiseh,cant use phone la,u super call on the wrong time can

ah chek: got such thing as cannot answer phone call in airport one meh?

ah soh: got la,at the scan bags and body area ma...

ah chek: oh...so fast boarding liao huh...never inform me...

ah soh: lol

ah chek: anw,better dun come back empty handed hor...

ah soh: oh pls,when u came back frm past 2 trips,also empty handed can!

ah chek: u go more holidays than me,u also empty handed come back lor

ah soh: kaoz.....

ah chek: i treat my frens very fair one,how they treat me i treat them back the same

ah soh: kaoz...ok lor,like tat u really win le lor....

the above scenario really made me ponder

it's indeed very true...

i have always live & preach the Four Seasons Hotel Golden Rule of

"to treat others the way you wish to be treated"

it's been awhile since i've been fully expose to this philosophy

i am glad that i am being reminded once again

it's time to bounce back :)

"tHe nEigHbOuRhOoD aFfAiR"

2009-04-08T15:43:00.003+08:00

this whole week,
dinner was consumed only @ a time close to 10pm
the closet workaholic me, have kicked drive this momentum
~ bad bad bad ~
when everyone's comfy on their sofa watching dramas or relaxing
for me, it was a time i dine home cooked food, be it sumptuous or simple
the great feeling of dining @ home in the comfort of my nightwear, matters most
:)

while i was gobbling down my chicken curry dinner, i had my maid by my side
she continued on her "finds" of our neighbour's son,
which her friend (another maid) + the owner & her are trying to match make

there's a sequel to the story in my previous post....

as i'm rushing for time to the airport,
shall be back to pen the hilarious sequel

.....stay tune.....

***Happy Easter Everyone***
i used to like easter alot bcoz in UK, easter break is freaking 1 mth
how shiok can that be
but in Singapore, its only 1 day holiday and next day, which is saturday, i am back to work
~ crapz ~
am happy this year's easter i am enjoying abit of ME time
!!!!woooooohoooooo!!!!

@ 戏如人生,人生如戏 @

2009-04-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

??? should i smile or should i frown ???
work has consumed so much of my personal time and my social life
i do asked myself, am i really able to commit if a man comes into my life
do i have the energy to coax, humour, TLC and bond with him
..... i really do not know .....
i barely even have time for myself, let alone for someone else
not as if there's someone at this moment
but just a random thought as recently bgr seems to be the topic over meals
~ hahaha ~

a hilarious scenario happened recently
just yesterday, while i was engross with my work, my maid told me the following:

elma:
yesterday, the neighbour maid came to ask me, saying that her sir was wondering if my sir's youngest daughter is attached
me:
huh?me?for wat?
elma:
bcoz, the sir wans to introduce his son to you, he says his son is still single till now, he's worried
me:
wat.....omg,how old first...scarly is a fat and old man how?
elma:
no la...he's 27yrs old and not fat, well built and he owns his own business
me:
hahaha,really,wah...i don't mind leh,businessman...can consider...
elma:
hahaha,really,i will go find more information...
me:
but then i am not a typical guy's type of girl, he may not be interested at all lor...
elma:
maybe he's not a typical girl's type of guy as well...
me:
hahaha,ok,go try get his photo for me to see,then if pleasing,maybe can matchmake,haha
elma:
i go check with the maid tml and see if i can get hold of any details

haha,cant believed my own ears initially
at such an era,or perhaps in reality,there're really such cases
me being such a TV addict,
i've never really give a good thought about it when i saw such scenrios on screen

..... hmz .....

!!! mY uNiQuE fReN !!!

2009-04-02T23:18:00.001+08:00

i know i have frens, when they give me gifts of such kind
i know i have frens, when they constantly reminds me of how V i am
i know i have frens, when i realised that i am sincerely heading those advice

hmz...4years
i must make sure it's put to good use, if not i'll disappoint my frens
:)
~ hahahaha ~

* OpPoRtUniTy *

2009-03-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

in a time span of just 4days
i've experienced things which i've never thought i might hv a shot @
bt in these days, the emotion turmoil almost crashed me deep into the ground

i've always managed to picked myself up
but in fear of when's the next time i might just be trashed dwn once again
i do wonder how long can my mind hold on and not succumb to those "devils"

i've realized that i have a lack of identity in this world right now
i was used to be know for my own name
bt in recent times, i am known to be someone's someone...

i keep telling myself, it's a transition phase, i will get thru it
i guess, it takes a lot for oneself to earn that respect
but i believed it's only when doors are open

～一切完美～

2009-03-20T22:59:00.004+08:00

if you're in the 1st place, there is a possibility of you being replaced
only the sole choice will be able to make it till the very end
*****
第一总是会有被取代的可能
只有唯一才能一直到永远
*****
no. 1, the only way to go is down, there's no chance to improve
*****
no. 1 的压力很大, 只有下跌, 没有上升的机会

learning a new perspective of having yearn to always be no. 1
:)

..... 这是愛情还是依赖 .....

2009-03-17T23:31:00.003+08:00

??? is it love or is it dependancy ???
abstracted frm The perfect Cut 2 ep10
it's just such a fine line that sets it apart
sadly, nowadays, just like hw godpa always reminds me
" marriage nor love life is something we should not toggle with "
it's not about being brave in entering one relationship & getting out of it & moving on
it's not about hw much you love each other and thinking you will want to spend your lifetime with each other
it's all about how you are going to make it through till death do you guys apart
one always think they are sure of their choices, re-think once again.....
many always says, you never try you'll never know
hmz, when things happen, i guess its too late to regret on it thou
but, some will say, That's What Life Is All About yea
i guess, in this era, it just gets harder when divorced rates are ascending
its really even more sad when one is taking the next step all bcoz of "i cant live w/o him/her"
think again.....这是愛情还是依赖.....
:)

??? hOw tRuE cAn iT b ???

2009-03-14T20:35:00.003+08:00

chanced upon my buddy's blog and took this personality test
on one hand, i feel it's fairly accurate on certain issues
but on the other hand, it scares me abit on hw predictable i can be
~ hahahaha ~

- judge for me then :) -

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
- many of my frens will say its damn true bcoz i just prefer to be diplomatic -

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
- pretty true :) -

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
- i guess it goes the same for everyone out there, bt i was thinking recently, can i just know someone and date him for a few mths and walk dwn the aisle with him....hmz.....-

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
- omg, so NOT true, no further explanation needed, am the least flirt/seductive person ever,ha -

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
- SPOT ON, damnz -

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
- not everyone gets to live by their dreams, i am just one of those that doesn't :( -

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
- i guess its a must for me to have such a mentality to persevere ON and shine! -

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
- Bull's eye manz -

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
- i just have to say YES :) -

~* 人生的无奈 *~

2009-03-11T17:15:00.000+08:00

abstracted frm web

。面对它，接受它，处理它，放下它。

当一个人遇到不愿看到，却又无法改变的事实时，

应该用这样的心态去对待它，人才不会深陷在一个死角走不出去

说的容易，却非比寻常

偶尔我觉得我必须懂得去接受事实

但另一方面的我却非常不甘心

最近的我发现，钱竟然是我的推动力

太可恶了

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。我不要。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

我想要的是对工作的热诚和有学习的空间

！！！我要出位！！！

~ 哈哈 ~

@ 我们正年轻 @

2009-03-08T22:12:00.000+08:00

abstracted from "those" days in bkk

虽然说友情要看缘份，但也必须用心经营
这样才不会有遗憾

亲爱的 & me spend 3 consecutive nights together

not in the arms of each other, but in the comfort of each other

we chatted and shared views on everything & anything

from light secrets to dark secrets

- hahaha -

as we age, our topic age as well

i wonder in our 30s, wat new topics will we be dabbling on

~ i can't wait ~

~ a nEw leAse oF L.I.F.E ~

2009-03-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

go.
it's one tiny, two letter word that makes amazing things happen
go is action. it's the spark that starts the flame that sets everything in motion
go gets us to try things we've always wanted to try
go keeps us going no matter what life throws our way
go reminds us it's a big, beautiful world out there, and it's time to make the most of it
which is why more people around the world go with visa
to get our there and play
to get our there and do
to get out there and experience all the incredible things life has to offer
go.

upon knowing the new marketing campaign of visa
i was really motivated about life once again
the ad in the papers hit me hard enough for me to re-think about not feeling sore for anything
i need to learn to "see open" and accept what comes into life for me
i believe i did improved but others just think its never good enough
thanks for the down-turn once again
*shit-ass-pants*

..... a bLeEdiNg tHeRmOmEtEr .....

2009-02-28T23:37:00.003+08:00

i've realised, for the past few weeks, i resemble a thermometer
not physically, but emotionally
my mood/feeling fluctuates in split moments
i can be really distraught in the day & really exhilarated at night
in the span of a few hours of joys, i am able to forget all those sorrows & sufferings

i kept telling myself not to think about it so that i will not drip those jewels of mine
but i guess, the immense pressure that builds up day after day, just made me crumble
i've tried hearing several perspectives towards those issues i am facing
however, thou being convince that i need to give myself more time
but time after time, i realised the feeling comes back again and i totally lost control of it
i trot and trot, only to know that its a circle after all
i see no end, i see no sky,i definitely see no light

i told myself umpteen times, i reminded myself umpteen times too
i must change, mentality wise
my new hope of seeing it as .....
me being impatient
me not seeing the big picture right yet
me being over confident
with these, i am able to reprimand myself for being naive and childish
by thinking so, i am able to persevere on and wish upon to see a glimpse of hope

..... i CAN .....

* tHe gLuE iN oTHers' LiFe *

2009-02-16T23:25:00.001+08:00

it's really amazing
how we can not meet for ages
but the moment we see each other
we're able to blabber non-stop
on almost every topic that strikes our mind
everyone have grown in each individual ways
we have started to dabble on the sorrows of working life
the bad economic situation that boiled us down to where w r
being forced to stay put at places we never thought we might hv been
everyone's working hard towards building their own career & life
i am happy to see these little juniors of mine to have bloom from seeds to flowers
:)
suddenly i feel old...gosh
but, i realised, i am able to dabble into any topics despite the age gap
with majority at the age of 2-4yrs younger,
ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, roar!

~ the 3 gens of IG ~

TP has indeed groom us in a way we never have thought we might be
:)

> sELf dEstRuCtiOn <

2009-02-12T15:10:00.002+08:00

任何事情都是命中注定
属于你的，就是你的
不属于你的，无论有多拼，永远不会属于你的
没有期待，就不会有失望.....
是吗？

“Sometimes in life, you need others to give you a chance.”

- arghz -

* eVeR pRoUd hOsPiaNs *

2009-02-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

a day when recent sorrows turned bygones
it never felt wrong to be surround by them
:)

check out facebook for those nonsensical pictorials
bear with us if explicit contents were within
outsiders will never know how crazy and cosy we can get with each other
some might think we have gone abroad
but that's just solely who we are when being put together
~ hOspIanS wE 4eVer wiLL bE ~

! nEvEr cOmpArE sUfFeRiNgs !

2009-02-07T18:18:00.006+08:00

during times like these,
when i am at my lowest,
when i could not find any more ways to strengthen my thoughts to pick myself up again,
i contemplate to give it all up and waste my life away being "useless" in the eyes of others

however, it's always during times like these
i get to chance upon certain things that re-trigger that "thing" in me
this time round, it was a video of someone's life

thru him, i found inspirations of how to not give in to the hurdles in life
i hope to those who might be in the same shoe as i am, can as well :)

I gotta say, life isn't how i expected
but in a way, i guess that's nice
o, not really
and i cried myself to sleep
but what can i do?
what am i supposed to do with this mess called life?
people always say
"you'll figure it out along the way"
still.....

* a frUitFuL sHoRt LiFe *

2009-01-29T00:58:00.004+08:00

it's been a while since i've known the existence of this series
i was really exhilarated to chance upon it at the famous Eslite Bookstore in Taiwan
it speaks so much of the sorrows that i encountered, just like the japanese girl featured in it
i nod my head & gave a smile at every flip of reading
it's just so true, so real, so fasinating
- hahahaha, i am never alone once again -

~ rOoTs oF LaNguAge ~

2009-01-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

I had great laughs while trotting round various parts of Taiwan
the country amazed me

they invent nonsensical road signs/store names, etc
their direct translations from chinese to english & vice versa
they are seriously "cute"

i know i owe u loads, ha

2009-01-22T12:01:00.000+08:00

in your favourite colour,
with the simplest greetings
* happy birthday *

!!! 今年会更好 !!!

2009-01-21T12:37:00.005+08:00

just as i type this in the office
am side-tracking from clearing up all my neccessary work load,
head home for my yummy bakuteh dinner
& off we go to Changi Airport

~yeapeedaadoo~
cant wait cant wait
it's the time of the year once again
my fam just hv this tradition whereby we'll not be in sin during cny period
i guess its what many term as 避年
haha, actually it's a crap term
coz going for a holi, u still need to 委托 ang pows as well
thus its like double expenses
~ cheyz ~
moreover, the cny "income" has been depreciating as we grow older
thus, i would rather not get it to help those pple in saving a couple bucks more
? a way of doing good deed ?
- hahahaha -

frankly speaking, heading out of sin this year is going to be the most ideal choice
especially after certain incidents, i would rather dodge than to face-it
- kekeke -

once again, we have opt to go on free & easy instead of a tour
yesterday, chef reminded me of sth ..... arghz
however, i crossed fingers that the US holi nightmare will not come to haunt us again
- @#$% @#$% -
with the dearest gps, i believe our X5 ride around the country would be fabulous
!!! 台湾我来了 !!!
~ till 31st Jan 09 ~

* mY liGhT beArErs *

2009-01-19T11:32:00.003+08:00

there are just some people in life whom you felt in debt to

they aint necessarily your loved ones
but people whom have turned from acquaintances to mentor to friends and much more
in my life, i am lucky to have two very significant personnel whom have touched my heart
they not only taught me things that was within their career scope
they have given me a glimpse and taste of what life's really all about
their sacrifices made mine so much smaller
their TLC comes in ways where words don't speak for it

i am grateful to them for being part of my growing phrase
just today, their presence in tonight's dinner made my day
it's been hell long since i last had such contagious laughter
i am totally myself just in front of them, hiding nothing from even the tiniest bit

their words of wisdom made me realized that i am a weakling
thru them, i am all so motivated about my life once again
thru their analogy, i am learning to embrace what's laid in front of me
allowing me to look on the bright side and work hard towards it
i sincerely hope to see the fruit that i bear in time to come

~ i was head over heels ~
their never-ending support since that incident made me tear from within
their words of encouragement and their believes in me assures me i am never alone
~ thank you chefs ~

u both are my inspiration & gems in my life

thank you :)

-::::: a tRasHeD sOuL :::::-

2009-01-11T16:53:00.007+08:00

被打碎的梦想
~ a penned resolution, a jaded me ~

just 2 weeks ushering into the new year
i realized the path in front of me is wavering
i see no end, i sense no strength
day by day as i hope
day by day i was trashed

since the day i made that turning point
i dare to dream no more
i dare to pursue no more
as a dream was shattered, and so was I

i lost myself in the process of imaginative healing
being in disillusion that i might just be high up there
soon, i will lose my footage
caging up and pass those days

the green-eyed monster in me starts to emerge
for under many circumstances that cant be submerged
i disagree with "competition is healthy, for it makes one better"
as in the 1st place, no chances/opportunities & trust was given
i tried many a times to motivate myself
convincing that i was "saved" for much more
but time after time, i fell deeper into the hollow well

many said "Life's a never-ending learning journey"
we must 活到老学到老
crap shitz to that
many a times, time waits for no man
how often pple are willing to wait for one to learn those ropes
when right smack in front of them comes someone whom knows it all
in this circumstance, even if one is willing to learn, it's just for enriching purpose only
it doesn't help to bring you wealth, acknowledgment and opportunities, for its long taken by others

it has come to a point of time in my life that i see no purpose anymore
i live my life day by day with no goals
just being plain happy with a shelter above my head
??? where's the ME ???
please don't ask, for neither do i know
- silence -

adding on,
watching hell's kitchen s4 brought back many fond memories
it triggers many similar happy moments i once shared
the days when i am groomed in any ways possible
the days when i was provided opportunities that i could not hv asked for more
the days when i was empowered
the days where pple sees talent in me which i never know exists
..... it made me realized .....
it's really impt to have someone our there to lookout for you
to provide all kind of opportunities
to support, trust & believe in YOU
sadly, its also something i destroyed it with my own bare hands
looking back, i reprimanded myself .....
??? Y ???
i concluded, i was young back then

~ 嘻嘻哈哈的人生背后，掩盖了很多无人知的故事～

(: ~ kNoWinG u R tHeRe ~ :)

2009-01-07T21:44:00.002+08:00

Incompatible, it don't matter though,
'Cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr Loveable is already in my life?
Right infront of me,
Well maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold,
Who knows how to love you without being told?
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own,
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do i find the perfect fit?
There's enough for everyone,
But I'm still waiting in line

chanced upon the above lovely writings
thru someone's space where i find loads of motivation from
someone in my life recently mentioned about looking out for a "garang princess"
ha, i wonder how lucky he can be, for we know it might just be a long wait
despite, we know there's someone there for sure
:)

hOsPiaNs

2009-01-03T23:40:00.001+08:00

the phrase i have always believed in have been proven once again
*winks*

never taking things for granted
it takes everyone's hands to clap
with every inch of effort being put in
we REUNITE once again

!!! 踏入人生25年的我 !!!

2009-01-01T23:10:00.005+08:00

..... omg .....
25th year since i have come into this mixed-feeling world
- lol lol lol -
life's really a never-ending learning journey
we learn in every way we possibly can
thru people, oneself, surroundings, environment, etc
in general, about humanity, that scares me shitz

2008 was a really bad year for me
a human born in the year of the rat, hitting the year of the rat after 2 cycles
2009 MUST be good
i yearn, i desire, i hope
i wish for justice in life
i have great expectations on others & myself
those sacrifices must pay
those tears must turn jewel

i believe in resolutions, i pen it down year after year
till date, i have achieved NONE
nevertheless, i am still penning and i am still hopeful

***Happy New Year***
an enriching life begins just today
:)

!!! 年年的倒数，少不了对方 !!!

2008-12-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

~ souls for life ~
we connect in the weirdest ways we possibly can
for the past years, we never fail to spend this day with each others companionship
as we grow, we become more tame
we seek for different lifestyles
we yearn for different enjoyments
but one think that will never grow, would be the youthful heart we have
- lol lol lol -

the night out @ timbre speaks volume of the love we have for each other
the never-sick spirit of seeing each other
the dying urge to spend those precious time with one another
it's even more meaningful to be back at the very very old nan hua location called old school
indeed, a very very old feeling
- lol lol lol -

< tHe piGgY gAnG hEads OuT >

2008-12-26T22:41:00.001+08:00

every year without fail
we will meet on a special day
a date which is between fish & moi's bday
coz we will come together and celeb it and also to immerse ourselves with the festive spirit
we had steamy hotpot during this wet season, oooooh so warmth

this day, all thanks to jazu
we've received a priceless gift from a priceless fren
what can we asked for more in such a time
- love them -

~ buttocks 万岁 ~

2008-12-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

a well-spent xmas eve with a terrible & husky voice of mine
my buttocks are a bunch of hilarious peeps
we do nonsensical things to keep each other entertained
family members are just pple whom you cant choose in life
and i know i dont have to choose, coz they have been just there
:)

some are happy, some are sad
all these resulted in a oh-so-loving gift exchange
- hahahahaha -
i gave mine to my godma coz i know a small gift will put a smile on her face
- yeahoo -

年年都有这一天

2008-12-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

since the very day i had my 21st big bash celeb
thereafter, i have been telling myself for the very next few years,
i am so going to have simple dinner affairs
because i strongly believe in the word, reunion
for we have all been too busy with our own careers
it's only during one's bday that we get to come together for a good catch-up

i believe this day is the day
we always knew the bond is never being neglected
sadly jess & vinz cant make it
am sure they know they are dearly missed

~ a siMpLe aFfaiR ~

2008-12-21T18:56:00.004+08:00

i have 2 ever-sweet ladies to kick start on my old bday celeb
we just know we are there whenever needed
we just know that we do not need those weekly meet-ups
we just know that after years of being nick-to-kick and roughing it out together
we are always just as close as we know we will be
:)

~ tHe yEarLy visit ~

2008-12-20T23:08:00.001+08:00

despite leaving the industry for good
never shall the bridge nor the bond ever be burnt
it's the time of the year once again
1) a cozy meal session
2) the jealousy of the gift x-change
3) rowdy game session
sadly, this year we had a few missing gems
but, we managed to create our own kind of special atmosphere
- niak hiak niak -
thanks to the major psyching, i went home with a crap gift again this year
but many other gifts made up for the sadness, hahaha
- love love love -
just when i am having a really bad sore throat for a week
it had gotten worst after a night of screams, shouts, excitement
this year we taboo our night away till past midnite
it was sooooo fun that i am sooo hooked onto it
*roar*

* tHe hAmz dUo *

2008-12-19T23:50:00.002+08:00

after xxx days/weeks/mths
finally the hamz managed to meet up for a simple night out
seriously, being with the young really helps in rejuvenating my old soul once again
her analogies of life is by far the most absurd reasoning i've come across
i wonder am i laughing at her or was it because i am amused by her
despite all, it's weird hw we managed to maintain this hilarious friendship
i admire her honesty & perseverance
she's one who gives someone the utmost respect and idolizes weird pple
- hahahahahahaha -

she really brought me back to those days when we were all so young
the reason behind it all.....
she loves to say this phrase to pple whom disappoint her (till today) :
"I wan to break friendship with you"
- hahahahahahahahaha -
seriously, tell me that aint childish
- hahahahahahahahaha -
but tat's the companionship i need at this moment
* hugs *

!!! yEs wE cAn !!!

2008-12-13T23:54:00.001+08:00

at the bottom of everyone's heart
we all know that it's possible
the secret behind it : an effort from each individual
it was a mini success for the gathering
everyone turned-up as promised
thanks to facebook for allowing us to reach-out to those we hv lost contact with
we hope to "hunt" dwn the rest of the peeps in time to come for the next meet-up

it has been helluva long
perhaps in the time span of a decade and more
oh shucks, we are indeed OLD
- damnz -
it all takes for Mrs Lee to gave that comment
only then we realise we are no longer the teenagers in her eyes
- hahaha -

it was such a boozy nite that we have lost track of time
only when the police came-by for a visit then we realised, OH NO!
that's the cons of having ministers and foreign ambassadors as your direct/indirect neighbours
police patrol every night
@#$% @#$%
both of them doubt that am the owner's daughter
so what am in tee n berms n am short like a teen, cant meh ..... dun look like meh .....
must wear diamonds then can be look like the owner's daughter meh .....
- liewz -
!@#$ !@#$

nonetheless, it was a great nite-in, i believe many were grinning even in their sleeps

~!!!* iMpOsSiBLe iS nOtHiNg *!!!~

2008-12-07T20:56:00.001+08:00

Nothing to Fear
as i'm as good as the best
as strong as the mightiest too
- hahaha -
In just the measure i give
there's nothing too good for me to possess
there's no heights where i cannot go
the power is more than belief or guess
- hiak niak hiak -
I can and I will
for i'm the invincible me
setting foot on the highest hill
there's nothing i cannot do
- i know i know -

waking up to the shivers resulted from the storm from the night
i was all geared up with my running kit and gym bag
just when everyone's sound asleep in bed
i made my way to the marina area to meet my dearest ngia
we are both gamed up for the run which we were in fear of just days ago
it was our virgin 10km run and the crowd made me feel like it's the run of the century, sort of
close to 50,000 runners covered the streets where vehicles all slowed down to take a glance
seeing tonnes of running enthusiasts by our side, we felt really motivated
just at the starting line, getting all ready, i felt like i was in ZOUK
the irony is, i hate places like zouk, but i enjoyed the moments today
the adrenaline rush came from the pumping hype music that kept me awake
we were screaming, clapping, chtting while queuing at the start line

the race kicked off and at the 1km mark, i told ngia about it and she commented:
为何要这样 remind 我们
hahaha, i was pissed as well coz i thought we had ran quite a distance
@#$%
just when i was about to "punk chek", i thot i should persevere more coz it's coming to an end
guess what, it reads 5km
@#$% @#$%
as much as i tried nt to be demoralize, i seriously am
- hahaha -
despite all, we MADE it, we FINISHED it
- hoooooooooraaaaaaaaaay -
guess what ngia said:
let's try for half marathon next year
me:
....................
but come to think of it, y not
it's possible as nike human race, great eastern and many more are in line for us nxt yr

serioulsy, i know myself well enough
this race is impossible without one person
this race is impossible if she wasnt there to spur me on
this race is impossible if she did nt slow dwn her personal pace to follow mine
this person is none other than my dearest ngia
it's really bcoz of you that i managed to go further than what i am capable of
it's really bcoz of you that i managed to attain a goal that i set upon
it's really bcoz of you that i managed to be proud of myself and don on the medal
the selfless you gave me hope
i love you ngia
应为有你,我才会有今天的奇迹已成绩

What is it that stimulates the mind or emotions to a high level of feeling or activity and arouses the individual to action toward a desired goal?
i believed it's how much u really want it
:)

~ 困难的任务 ~

2008-12-06T20:00:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's THE D-DAY
it was just 3mths back that ngia and i were enthusiastically signing up for this run
with an eye's blink, it's commencing 12hours from now
- shitz -
we are both in doom shit as we haven been running for a mth
and just a day before the run, ngia's hving a hangover and me hving stomach upset
??? tell me how excited can we be ???
a few days back, we headed to expo to collect our runner's kit
not only were we caught in the heavily pouring rain, we were in awe with the length of the queue

despite all
i hope we are ready
aim : end the race even if it means being last
hahahaha, 真没出息, hahahaha

!!! 台湾,我爱 !!!

2008-12-05T23:37:00.001+08:00

just when u realised ur life seems to go down hill with no exciting moments
the very next minute,your dear friends just enlighten ur day in the sweeeetest way
- @#$% @#$% -
Di bought this in Taiwan during her recent grad trip
initially,i was wondering,y a box of briefs.....
dont play play,its the imitation version of CK called Cavlin Kelin
- haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa -

when u flip to the side,it's in actual fact......choco penis......hahaha
??? why does jazu n piggy gets cute nippled breasts and i get the opposite ???

!!! HiLARIOUS !!!

*winks*
now i know what to get for my mates when i visit taiwan during cny
finally i can stop sourcing for kotex marshmallows
- woot -

..... ewwwwww .....

2008-12-01T13:59:00.001+08:00

just when i sat dwn on my office desk
right smack on my desk were piles of papers all ready to clear

just when i open up my folders and documents
i realized i am typing 01/12/2008 on my comp

it's freaking DECEMBER right now
how gross can tat be
..... tell me .....

24yrs of life is coming to an end
my 25th yrs is waving a big hello at me soon
- kaoz -

~ 世界已疯狂 ~

2008-11-29T12:22:00.000+08:00

the world's economic has reached a low peak
so does humanity

just as i walked dwn the stairs, right smack on my face was The Straits Times
a quick glance of a pretty girl as the headlines
it shot thru my mind "do not tell me it's the lawyer"
just yest thru radio, i heard her voice of assurance that she's alright
just yest on a call with a fren, we were just saying how scary it can be to be held hostage
and today, she's gone, forever

everyone keeps harping on "Life's Short, Treasure It"
but in such a real world, how often do we live by those words
it's always only when something happens and when we grieve for it
then we realised hw much damaged it has done to many
by then, it's by far too late

just when i am grieving for a fren who has lost his loved one
but as i flipped the papers, i realised many are grieving just like i do

~ may all rest in peace, may ur future journey be ever peace ~

eVeRytHinG hApPeNs 4 a rEasOn

2008-11-25T22:41:00.002+08:00

since that decision was made
i have always lived by this new philosophy in life
- everything in life happens for a reason -
it might be rewarding, it might be saddening
but all in all, within this whole process
we will fall-learn-grow-happy

today, i was rewarded in one way or another
dropped my sim card into the most unreachable compartment inside a car
the only method to retrieve it back : remove the whole back seat of the car
thinking about the possible cost that might be incurred, i decided to forgo the hassle of heading to mercedes
i would rather pay for the replacement cost of the sim card which is definitely way cheaper
popped by singtel and to my surprise, my sim card is replaced for FREE
- hahahaha, wooooohooooo -
while waiting, i casually asked the promotion of the phone i've been dying to get hold of
luck is INDEED by my side
i am a happy soul once again

this weekend will be my 1st full time PAYDAY
thou i am doing the payroll for myself
i am seriously excited
it's seriously not alot, but i am just happy for a plain old reason
- i REALLY worked HARD for it -
- winks -

a BIG THANK YOU to all who have stood by in all ways
letting me share my sorrows and assuring me there's never a dead end ahead
a mini list of some and its never-ending:
piggy,jazu,dina,fish,xiaobai
ah nan,dearie,ngia,slut
janey,dory pi,fa mei nu
kelly,jenna,mich,jj,kq
chinnyman,qq,kj,vinz,jimz
leighkhoo,dawn,karin
chef phua/ng,miss choi,miss quah
hiao,melliot,johnny,tracy,honey fife,sala,cutiepie nic
..... many many more .....

郑董向你们致敬
hahaha
xoxoxoxoxoxo

往事只能回味

2008-11-16T12:19:00.001+08:00

updating ting on recent events
brought back many fond memories we once shared

updating her on all those recent wonderful moments we had
i laughed just when i tabbed

reenacting those scenes thru words
getting all so excited
unknowingly realizing she's abroad
- sobz -

just like wat ngia said :
you dont' have to hide coz we don't judge

just like wat jess said :
i guess the closeness indeed have brought telepathy within each other

scenes like :
jess trying to hide the "breakfast" stories
ngia trying to "volunteer" in revealing stories
ngia kb moi n jess for secretly smsing each other when a scenario happens
jess kb moi n ngia for jumping off her hotel's bed
- hahahahahahahahaha -

非常经典的画面
永记在心

!!! i mUsT gEt uSeD tO iT !!!

2008-11-12T00:04:00.001+08:00

the fatigue is seriously settling in
i realized i have lost all the energy and joy i get when i watched my dramas
i kind of have lost time for almost everything that i used to do
i barely have anytime just for myself
not even to mention meeting up my friends
i just wish to head home everyday and rest

the new lifestyle made me healthier in a way
i appreciate the fact that i get to head out of hse with a purpose
i am learning bit by bit
with baby steps,i am gonna make it thru
- woot -

~ eVerYoNe nOeS mE wELL ~

2008-11-11T23:11:00.001+08:00

after being introduced on how "interesting" this musical was
i asked my ever-on sumo bro to accompany me to watch it
he was the best companion for this musical as great minds think alike
- hahahahaha -

as we knocked off late from work and there's massive jam
we only had 10mins to dine at ichiban boshi
imagine hw we gobbled n stuffed the sushi dwn our throat
still,we were slightly late for the show
- opz,grand entrance,haha -

bravo to the artists behind the puppets
the expressions were flawless
at times,i paid much more attention to them then the puppets
- hahaha -

it was such an enjoyable night
full of laughter and thoughts
i just love to indulge myself in stories that's so down-to-earth & practical

many great songs in the show
but i particularly loved this :
There's a Fine, Fine Line by Kate

There's a fine, fine line,
Between a lover and a friend.
There's a fine, fine line,
Between reality and pretend.
And you never know til you reach the top
If it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line,
Between love & a waste of time!

There's a fine, fine line,
Between a fairy tale and a lie.
And theres a fine, fine line,
Between You're wonderful and Goodbye.
I guess if someone doesnt love you back
It isnt such a crime.

But there's a fine, fine line between
Love and a Waste of your Time!

There's a fine, fine line,
Between together and Not.

And there's a fine, fine line,
Between what you wanted and what you got.

You gotta go after the things you want,
While youre still in your prime.

Theres a fine, fine line.
Between Love and a Waste of TIME!!!

ya pa da de dooooooooooo

2008-11-08T11:00:00.001+08:00

..... trust me .....
this has been the longest wait ever
~ 6mths ~
i dun give a **** abt the 1st batch phones crap
i am sooooo gonna get it
!!! road show HERE i COME !!!

knowing it will b launching within these few weeks
i've been waking up at the earliest time possible for a few saturdays already
flipping The Straits Times today
i shouted really LOUDLY "yeeeeeeee hooooooo"
my mum ran dwn the stairs thinking what had happened
knowing its for those fetish of mine,she scolded me "SIAO"

i worked REALLY hard for the past 2 weeks
time to pamper myself
- woot -
??? will i buy ultimately ???
- niak hiak niak -

!!! T.G.I.F !!!

2008-11-07T22:50:00.001+08:00

!!! yea !!!
no more inhaling of rubber
no more sight of black dust
no more cracking of brains on set-ups
no more filthy feet

am sososo glad the weekend came by in a flash
i seriously need some rest for the aching bones
i really need to run to feel healthy,clean & light

i never used to have a chance to say T.G.I.F
for the fact that now i do get the chance
it was full of mixed emotions
still, T.G.I.F

@ wE nEvEr kNoW wHaT's nExT @

2008-11-06T21:23:00.000+08:00

..... indeed .....
it's never the constant catch up that matters
it's the fact that endless topics were being blabbered

titled: a call
Two days ago I made a call ...
" Hello Soo Ling speaking "
Hearing that voice made me smile and ponder how far we are but once we started chattting it's so hard to put down the phone :)
A call that made my day.
documented by : melliot

- hugs -
such a waste johnny was working in school tat day
it's been long since we last crap on wat's IN & OUT of the IT world

this really reminds me of the time leighkhoo & i were in paris
3 full years of zero catch ups
bt we almost headed home in the wee hours of the morning as there wasn't an ending to the talks
walking on the unfamiliar streets of paris seriously send nerves up my spine
but tat's what we call 'an experience of a life time'

flashing back on recent fb chats with dawn
the world is seriously small
after those IG days,everyone parted ways in pursuing own dreams
but just when one starts to care and concern
it seems never ending

~ i love these short lovely moments ~

!!! sWaLLowiNg oNe'S iNteGriTy !!!

2008-11-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

in the companion of hundreds of fans, dearie & ngia
watched The Russell Peters show today
he freaking ROCK bottom manz
he's all worth the image of hving SOLD OUT shows in every region he performs
there wasn't a single moment whereby you can hv your mouth closed
coz every moment were well spent giggles
for straight 2hrs,we could barely ensure no laughters

he's ever racist and ever insulting
i.love.him
- niak hiak niak -

郑董今天让自己早下班
但是还是迟到了
哈哈
搬了220条轮台
很想死在灰尘中
哈哈

~ a.vErY.tReAsUrEd.mOmEnT ~

2008-11-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

!!! Q男过生日了 !!!

it was a long awaited simple affair
birthdays are no longer a day of just presents and cakes
they are more treasured as a day of gathering
friends coming close together for a meal to crap
- lol lol lol -

the climax of the night kicked off at Starbucks
i wonder was it the caffeine that we consumed
or was it the casual environment and comfort within peers
no one would believe wat kind of topic we have dabbled on
frm bang bang on toilet sheets to texture of shit to ways of cleaning one's ass
there were just so much more intimate topics and rubbish languages
it was just a night full of tears
but they were tears of joy
laughing and crying till our hearts content

真的好久没有这么快乐的过一晚和大笑一场
人生短短
必须要珍惜和任何人的快乐时光

!!! tHe.wOrKahOLiC.mE !!!

2008-10-30T10:37:00.000+08:00

very very very busy
~ i am loving it ~
i seriously worked well under pressure
i performed best under scrutiny
i enjoyed most when my mobile rang non-stop

我常常告诉自己,我是个人才
爽到极点
哈哈

~ * s.H.i.V.E.R.s *~

2008-10-26T20:19:00.000+08:00

i've given my whole life/time for someone whom i thought i'll be spending my life with
sadly,knowing he's not the one ultimately
~ abstract from kk ~

??? yyyyy ???
loving one is just not a simple i.love.you
- this sucks -

a.cHaNgEd.mE

2008-10-20T18:11:00.000+08:00

it wasn't easy
i can wholeheartedly vouched for that
a big step in life
a changed mentality
a right mindset
no longer jaded
re-charged for a new start

thrown away were those dreams i once hold on dearly
trashed away were those accolades i've once attained
diminished were those scorching flames that burnt
despite these
there's one thing for sure that i do know
the LOVE for it will never fade or die
i sincerely hope so
the practicabilities in life just takes its tolls on humans in such easy feet

embracing what's in for me in years to come
wishing and hoping for achievements that tells a sum

*thanks you to those that stood by*
seeing those precious jewels tat dripped by

~ 88 oNcE aGaiN ~

2008-10-16T00:58:00.000+08:00

off i go on a jet plane
to the land of pad thai

stepping foot into a place where its alerted to be dangerous
- the current riot land -

attending a stranger's wedding sounds weird to many
but i guess,its such a norm for me
would love to see how's a thai wedding being celebrated

moi's 1st half biz-leisure trip
i hope to enjoy myself,with the companion of my parents

~ brb soon ~

@ tHe nOn-sTudiOuS mE eVoLvEd @

2008-10-15T23:12:00.003+08:00

many thoughts went thru my mind
whilst on my way home
i wondered now and then
did i really enjoyed the class
did i really find it interesting
or was it all just coz i've force-feed myself with the "right mentality"
anyhow,i still managed to pull thru 3hrs straight for my 1st lesson

frankly speaking
i dragged my soul to pull thru the very 1st hour
i kept taking mini glances at my watch
seeing how the minutes and seconds just tick by
knowing that i have like 120mins more to go
i was embarrassed to have yawn tons of time

1st lesson has its typical start off point
still,i was taken aback when the lecturer mentioned
"pls give a short introduction of urself"
"name & where you work"
- oh lord,i hate this -
"Hi,I'm Soo Ling and I just graduated from Uni"
right after mentioning that,everyone made a sharp head turn and looked at me
it was weird indeed,bcoz i have never expected such a reaction frm my coursemates
it seems like they have never encountered a uni student before,lol lol
the lecturer joked after releasing a awed expression
"so y r u here when u already hv a degree on hand?"
..... i am like .....
haha,erm,i studied hospitality thus i am here to gain some knowledge for a new field
thus he added on "dont worry,i will guide u step by step"
- heaving huge sigh of relief -

gosh,i wonder was it because i am stubborn or i am just being focus in the past
i realised i am so ignorant on the on-goings of any other industry except hospitality/tourism
the stories/issues/terms told and used were such a stranger to me
i flip my notes every now and then to further aid me in understanding wat the lec was talking
really,besides service service service and more service
i seriously know nuts
it's indeed a whole.new.world to me

despite all the mixed emotions
for the 1st time
i kind of enjoyed the slow drive back home
listening to the melody of jay chou's music
re-evaluating the chimalogy terms used in class
for a very short moment
i realised i am keen in having a change in career path for sure
- lol lol lol -
- tsk tsk tsk -

i am just so easily contented
i am just so easily being persuaded
i am just so easily being amused by new challenges

*??? who am i ???*
*its sth i will never know myself till then*

most importantly,at least i am looking forward to the next lesson
a great improvement as its been long since i am last proud of myself
small pat on my own shoulders
- lol lol lol -

..... tiLL dAtE,i rEaLiSeD .....

2008-10-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

i've lost the urge to blog everyday
i've forgotten the existence of the camera in my bag
i've become lazy in colourizing my posts

i've kind of lost the zest in life which i last found 2 years back
??? where am i ???
it's something i will never know till the day i gain happiness once again
??? when will that be ???
i pondered too

..... hmz .....

冷漠,有时候并不无情
它只是一种避免被伤害的工具

@!!! sPoT oN !!!@

2008-10-10T23:28:00.004+08:00

dirty.sexy.money
mixed feelings for a family-based show
its just so real that i hate the fact that i see a mirror image of myself
just right on the latest episode,i said a big hello once again
*@#$%*

应为你是这份工作的最佳人选
虽然你这一辈子都是这个家庭的害群之马
但是你还是乐意为他们掏心掏肺
you are the best person for the job
thou you have been the black sheep in the family for ur whole life
but u r still willing to do anything & everything for the family

i believed there aint any angel in this world
but i've found an angel within me
how ironic is that

* wiShiNg & hOpiNg *

2008-10-09T23:38:00.001+08:00

granny's hospitalised once again
she has never been in any good health for the past yrs
her bonus 4yrs were a gift frm heaven to us all

being back at the same old hospital & ward & foodcourt
nothing's changed except that we saw the non-existence of
Novena Square to its well-establishment buildings to it being called Velocity
..... reminiscing the days .....
whereby everyone got into a huge shock
the day my uncle collapse due to extreme sadness
times where we stayed overnight @ the hospi
the daily vending machine we patronize for milo/kopi

the environment's full of familiarity
i shiver as i i take every step towards the ward
hoping the same scene will not repeat itself

*ah ma,你要健康哦*

~ 人生就是这么样的不简单 ~

2008-10-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

harsh reality sets in
i tried many a times to float inside a dreamy bubble
but the bubble has been poked and it broke

i've come to realise,i must try not to detest anything in life
heaven just loves to play a joke on me
as much as i hate being a student
as much as i hate those numerical figures
as much as i hate hving to jump into an unknown world
i am hving so much fate with the above stated scenarios
the more you detest it,the more it comes haunting on you
??? y y y y ???

..... today .....
just when i step foot into that building
just when i pen down that signature on that piece of paper
just when i settled the required payment
my fate is sealed
i blame no one for that decision made
a personal choice indeed
sth i am sure i will regret for life
but i still chose to walk on that path
army dudes loves to preach on this:
"when the going gets tough,the tough gets going"
i hope i am one of the tough ones,armoring myself for a torturous future

looking on a bright side
who knows,i might just be someone in future
prolly in my humble little own world
- hiak niak hiak -

@~ tEaRy mOmEntS ~@

2008-10-05T22:58:00.002+08:00

an uncontrollable emotion
an experience for the 1st time

i teared for moments like this:

http://cloudeight.wordpress.com/2008/10/05/1120/

~ money just cant buy you such love ~
xo

~ 戏如人生,人生如戏 ~

2008-10-01T14:59:00.000+08:00

entering into the 5th month
i too,wonder wat's next
others questioned
many cared

all i can say
i am pretty occupied
!!! because the season for the US drama(s) is back !!!
not to haunt me bt to enlighten my life back
- hiak niak hiak -

TVB2008年重头剧
80集
珠光宝气
seriously cant wait for its premiere
whichever top notch artists
you name it,they are in it
- woot -

~ gOne jUsT LiKe tAt ~

2008-09-28T23:57:00.001+08:00

just when the country gets all hype abt being known as THE COUNTRY
Singapore,being the 1st country to host the 1st night race in the history of f1
everything ended in just a short time span of 3days
frankly speaking,in days or weeks to come
??? who would really still remember this day ???
singaporeans beings as kaypo and our eagerness to join in any crowds
whenever a mega news is being flashed in the papers
we will definitely be conversing in stories with relations to those news
that's when daily life becomes repetitive and days just past by us

a mini glance of the wonderful experiences i had @ The Boardwalk Club
the free flow of wine & champagne doesn't satisfy me
its was the buffet,cranberry juice & live band that did
most importantly,the place's air conditioned
- lol lol lol -

dearie ditched her pit grandstand suite to join me for a great meal
but,she ditched me when the race was about to begin
wun blame her of coz,coz she had fantastic views frm her side
* envy *
despite tat,we accompanied each other thru smses throughout the race
* winks winks,roger frm the "ang moh" *

when the whole race came to a closure
the spectators were allowed to walk on the circuit itself
it was great opportunity to have a close glance of the pit areas
- awfully COOL -
how i wish i had the chance to change the tyres for those drivers
- wahahahaha -

this is a quick motion glance of all the racers & their vroom vroom
every racer gets to warm-up the engines & tyres of their vroom vroom
zooming their way on the 5km plus circuit for 1 round prior to the official start of the race

this vid shows the almost ending portion of the very 1st lap of the historical night race
- ultra exciting -

! 请让我知道在你眼里我是个宝 !

2008-09-24T18:05:00.001+08:00

我在也不知道
已沉醉在迷糊又混乱的生活里的我
是否对‘他’来说真的重要

‘他’是否真正的欣赏我
是否会真心诚意的领导我
我天天都害怕近期内将会被抛在一边,迷失了方向
已习惯自由自在日子的我
是否还能在残酷的社会里生存呢

‘他’兴高采烈的对我说时,我犹豫不决了一会儿
做了决定后
为何没有得到‘他’的支持
从一开始我已失去有了自己选择的权利
我已失去了自我

伤心总是难免的
我不要做任何人的代替品或救生圈
我需要有属于我自己的空间
当有机会去见识的时候
‘他’却不把机会留给我
我感觉非常不受重视
那为何当初却避我选择了‘他’

我不想对我的决定感到后悔
但现在的我真的很痛苦
而已没机会走回头路

**a LiFe without close sOuls**CoLoUrS oF LiFe???